I wrote this when I was having a really hard time to try and help me make sense of everything. The spelling is terrible and I'll probably use the wrong word a lot but this is more for me and life can really suck but I've found writing it down stops me from rethinking the same thing again and again and does help.
Wrote this in 2022, going to go back through and rewrite but for now I'm just posting it, so I don't forget about it. Any editing mistakes blame past me, not current me okay.