If I could change everything...(read first)
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MatureComplete Mon, Sep 28, 2015<5 mins
hi my name is rose I wont say my real name its better like that I wanted to say what if you could reverse change your life would you? I dont know I have this thought everyday cause my life isn't perfect and am not afraid to admit it cause whatever people often see me as this girl who's shy and unemotional and just stares ive been alone for years only at home with the people I love I can actually be me all the friends ive had over the years ive never could be me ive been bullied called ugly and fat but am so use to it thats were I look so unemotional I have trust issuses and depression stress anixenity I know thats spelled wrong but yeah ive only met one person out there who I can relate too in school kairi she was alone she always drew to keep her busy I use too do that too when I met her she was this great girl beautiful I don't get why anyone would bully her but they did we got closer and closer and begin to show more of us to the point she became my sister bestie she told about her
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