Rulers Inside Me
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- Parts 3
Ongoing15m
Last published Tue, Dec 22, 2015
All the memories haunts me, they're giving me nightmares in my sleep. I hate it, it makes me guilt in some way. How can I get out of this?
Why do they always notice my mistakes rather than my golds? Do they know how fucked-up my life is? Do they even bother to ask me if I'm okay? Oh fuck. I'm over thinking things again.
"What a difference a day can make."
I turn off the lights, close my eyes, and let the rulers control my world.
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