There's a pulse. It beats in all of us. Something we're aware of, something that keeps us alive. But for some, that pulse is more than just a heartbeat, it's a constant hum, an energy that's never silent, always pulling towards the darkest parts of our souls. Mae Styles and Cricket Shannon are best friends, have been since the 4th grade. Mae's older brother, Harry, is also Cricket's friend....no, closer than that, but not in the same way as Mae. Cricket and Harry share a bond that's always been deep. Their connection, unexplainable, like they were the siblings, and Mae the close friend. The three of them know it exists, but they don't try to understand it, it simply just is. When the three of them were kids, their pulse, that youthful energy, showed itself in typical adolescent ways. Shying away from boredom, the three immersed themselves in anything to keep them occupied. Unable to be still, the risks they took were fun, wild and exciting, trouble that they always were able to bounce back from because they looked out for each other. However after his graduation, Harry moved away and Cricket and Mae were left to finish their last year of high school on their own, having to learn to be ok without him. It wasn't easy, but they survived. Now, a few years later, and no longer kids, Harry's back, and the three of them are moving into an apartment together. Harry's a bartender, Cricket and Mae are waitresses. Things are good.....for a while. Soon though, Cricket, Mae, and Harry, start to realize that the knot that held them together when they were kids, is beginning to loosen, to retie itself in a different way, and that restrained pulse that always beat just under the skin's surface, when set free, might just be enough to tear it apart.
Jessica's stomach fluttered, her gaze dropping to his lips then back up again. "I always hated my hair colour growing up." She observed, why did people bully you for being ginger? It was such a weird thing to bully someone for.
He shook his head, as though he couldn't believe what she said. "Why?"
"Kids are cruel."
"Kids are idiots. Your hair is.... inspiring."
"Inspiring?" She questioned.
"Poets should write about your hair." His finger curled around the strand he was toying with, and the world seemed to melt away. "It catches the light sometimes, like a flame. It's so..."
Their eyes meet. And Jess takes in the way his breathing deepens, the way he licks his lips.
She steps even closer, basically pressing herself into his arms. "It's so...?" She asks, begging for him to continue.
"Beautiful." He breathes.
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Falling in love with your bestfriends girl is never easy.
You want her.
Crave her.
But ultimately, you can't have her.
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This story is about falling in love again after loss.
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Jessica Hughes had the perfect life. She loved to bake and was actually really good at it! She was married to a great man, who she loved dearly, Adam. He was a Doctor in training, and they were so happy together.
Until one day, when he was suddenly gone.
The life she once cherished was gone.
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Jake was focusing on his music, trying to distract himself from his feelings towards his best friend's girl.
Jessica.
She was everything he wanted.
But ultimately, she was forbidden.
Only made more forbidden after his best friend dies.
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Adams death reminds them both how special and fleeting life is.
How do they both learn to cope with their grief, but also their undeniable pull towards each other?
*! Contains mature content!*
TW: child abuse/neglect
Drugs
Death of a loved one