Faded

Thought love would stay with me this time but things never goes the way it has planed in my mind. Love is a word that had the most definition because we can't really defined what's love.

First crush is a new beginning but crushes are no longer a crush when that feeling grew stronger through months, then years. It's was something that I can't completely moved on from and seeing things as it is like before. I can't gose a day without blaming on myself that it is my fault that I'm not good enough to be loved by you. But then through time, I have had move on. No one can stay on the same place that they are five years from now, even if they tried. I learnt to move on not long after I entered high school.
Freshman years was something. I told him I like him but then we never talked so the feeling in me got drifting away and my heart doesn’t flipped when he’s close or our eyes met by accident.
As times flies… Someone found me in this world that I got lost in and love me with all his heart but I could never gave him back the same love that he did toward me...