my story of selfharm

I was watching johnnie guilbert on YouTube and I saw the one when he was talking about selfharm
when he's dad had passaway my mom passed when I was 15 and she was dieing from cancer and I was lost and I was thinking why not tell you why I wanted to tell you johnnie had the courage to tell you his story about his selfharm. I was 15 mom had passed and i am 16now. I was depressed and I started to start cutting and I was sent to a mentall place and I was just out of it I almost died for cutting and I didn't know what to do and I went to see a person for my prombles and i just was sitting their for 2 mouths without talking to no-one and I listen to music loud when I am home and stoped going to school for a while everyone keep
bullying me I always wore blackany more and always colored hair I still do I don't know what to do anymore I still am depressed and lost and I bealy talk to anyone but I watch YouTube MDE and johnnie guilbert.