Am I Dreaming?

Hi. I'm Nikki, Nikki Presley. Everyone knows me as the weirdo gothic chic in the corner of the classroom. I have ONLY two friends.. Jessica and Jake. Jake's popular so it seems like he refuses to talk to me in public. Jessica's not exactly popular but people know her better than they know me.
But more about me . I'm not to nice.. I was always bullied as a kid. Eventually, I became homeschooled. After 16 years of being homeschooled, i attended the home of the Spartins; Drewsberry High. As soon as i walked in the building i smelled fear in the air. Desperation and drepression is what reaked off of me. People noticed it to. In other peoples eyes they see me as the short, pale skin, dirty blonde hair, blue eyed weirdo.
People saw Jake a perfection. Perfect height, perfect face, perfect blue- green eyes, perfect browish- blonde hair, perfect moehawk hairstyle, perfect smile, perfect personality, just overall perfect! Which is why i don't uderstand why he talks to me..well kinda.. Yes he's "somewhat" talked to me. Wait.. Lemme Explain