My death wish
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Dear mum
I don't even know how it came to this, I was just drowning in everything around me and I couldn't handle it anymore. And you know how much I hate making myself the centre of attention or appearing weak in any way but I'm broken mum... And I don't wanna cry anymore not over boys not over him not over how my life is just overall shit. I tried mum I tried to dig myself out of this whole but I felt as if no one was where for me to talk to and I know I always had you but when I tried to talk to you I could never find the right words.
But I want you to know this is not the end. There's a better place for me out there somewhere. When I'm gone I know i'll get another chance at life and I'll make it worth while I promise.
Just promise me you never forget that I love you and I always will.
Yours with all my heart
Xiomara
I love you moma xx
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