The Badboy's First Love

"He is my complete opposite. He is not my type and will never be. I don't like him, well I actually hate him. I will never fall for someone like him. He's an absolute mess and I will never have the guts to change that." I told myself, confusion fills my head and I have no idea why. I am not myself right now and I just want to smack my head and know what I truly feel.

"When will I stop lying to myself?"