Shiver

I didn't have to put up a brave face anymore. I didn't have to push the smiles.

But as the smiles leave and there's nothing more to do for a while you just start to think.

Think about everything and anything that's shit in your life. It consumes you. It makes you feel so trapped. I called it the depths of despair.

It's funny because everyone seems to have these moments whether it's starts with you thinking about your weight or the way you look or your grades or the feeling of not having a real friend, someone you can depend on.

For me it was family. When I was just 14 my whole family was killed. First it was my brother. It happened the day after his eighteenth birthday. The police never found out who did it. A few months later my parents were also killed. A car crash.

From the stories I had heard and past experience I knew that these two accidents weren't just that, accidents. No they were something more. My parents and my brother would never live to see another day. Two funerals, one year and I was the last one left standing.

I suck at writing descriptions but hey what have you got to lose. Give it a read. :)