living with social anxiety
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This book is just a bunch of stories about my life with Social Anxiety. I hope it helps others relate and we can go through this together.
Walking down the hallway, heart pounding, people staring.
Suddenly everything freezes
A breath,
A shaky, broken breath
It comes out of my lips and out into the frozen world
Finally I see her, the one person I'm strong with
The one person that I can let my guard down with.
All the way on the other side of the hall.
Times unfreezes and all eyes are on me.
Staring
Judging
Whispering
Laughing
They tell me that nobody is looking
But they don't understand
They are
what a freak! They all think when they see me
I am a freak.
Freak
No I'm less then a freak.
I'm useless.
I hold back my million tears as I break into a run
rushing past the staring eyes
the whispering mouths
I reach out and I grab the sweater of my best friend.
She turns to look at me with a smile and in that moment
I'm beautiful
I'm smart
I'm strong
I'm worth it
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