Desperation
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Last published Sat, Jul 8, 2017
"I am drowning anyways. There is no point in living if I am just going to be sad all of the time."
"That is not true and you know that."
"I don't know anything. I don't want to know anything. I don't want to be anything. You're happy, and you're fine. I'm sad, and I'm not fine. I never will be and you cannot fix that, no matter how hard you try."
August Skinner is not your typical popular kid in school, and his life isn't a popular ideal way of living either. I guess you could say that he is just, getting by. Through heartache, betrayal, depression, and addiction he is forced to overcome obsticle after obsticle with the voices in his head or with his friends, sometimes he can't even tell who's on his side. Maybe he's not even on his own side.
'I wish things were different. But how am I supposed to fix myself when I'm far too lost and confused. I have nothing to lean on and no flashlight to guide me. Every day of my life is a struggle and I'm hanging on by my last breath, waiting patiently until I get one final blow.'
WARNING: This story DOES contain strong language, drug use, sexual content, and suicidal thought processing. PLEASE, read at your own risk.
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