Living with Anxiety
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I took a deep breath. I took a few more because of what I knew was going to happen next.
I sat in the middle of the studio, my stuff scattered around the floor. No. Not again. Not during this time.
Lungs aren't there.
Thinking about other things.
Mind is a blur.
Minutes pass.
Minutes feel like hours in my world.
They think I'm a freak. Mom thought moving would help me, would help this. This won't ever go away.
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