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A Story about a woman who for 30 years she thought that she was gay. Like most people in this confused mindset, she could not accept this and had all this fighting, struggling, pushing and pulling going on inside of her. She could not understand any of this....why did she feel so attracted to other woman and why did she not trust men? How did she get to be like this? Her soul was divided into two - she wanted the presence of the other woman, but her spirit was constantly convicting her of the illogicality of it in comparison to her faith that she had in God and Jesus Christ. Wherever she will find the logic, there also will she find the truth. So, she went for therapy......and the following story will tell the rest.........

Do not be like a chicken sitting on the top of a ladder posing as an eagle.......rather be that eagle and fly high conquering the air playing and rejoicing with swiftness in freedom of wrong perceptions.....All Rights Reserved

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SPARKS by MarthaBizulu

.....He finished explaining his story about what happened in Newyork. Somehow this therapy session was going well, he has even reduced drinking..... " well you did good and your still doing great." But still he wasn't sure he's been feeling a little out of place " I just wanted to ask lately I've been feeling not myself is this some kind of trauma thing?" " well...Mr Jones how do you feel?" The therapist asks him " actually I feel as if my adrenaline rush is thrilling, sometimes my heart beats fast and......I can't...breath..and thats when there's this-" He laid eyes closed and relaxed "- tingling feeling in you" His therapist finished with a brief sigh. " yeah...that's how I feel.....is it...serious?" He worried "no Mr Jones...what you're feeling is normal for every man, its what we call sparks...you yourself I think you know what it means....the only question is."............ "who exactly it is that you feel this things around?" There was a brief silence and a painful feeling knowing exactly who it was................a certain raven haired girl.

This is my truth by KristinaFigolah

My life has been an intense journey from a little girl who was beaten down and abused into believing that she was worthless, to a woman at 43 years of age who is still desperately searching for who she truly is. I found her though. I did. And she writes like me, from inside of me. She is me. This girl that I've been in love with since time first existed, is indeed me. The way that she walks. With her hands... and how she talks? The hearts that she's captured, the souls that she has inspired. I'm now trying to be her. I've never felt that I was good enough to actually be myself!!! I always knew how pure and clear and free I was inside. But people told me otherwise, in a very cruel way. No one ever spared my feelings or thought to speak to me with kindness or love. My parents were very serious and strict people. They believed that there was only 1 way to act and inside I knew that I did NOT fit in the parameters of the behavior expected of me. And every single time I made my Step Daddy sigh or frown it felt like I knife in my heart. I was a let down. Always too loud. Always moving too much. Always too fat and always too ugly. Always too much. Unless I sat quietly. But I've always been a firecracker and all of that containment really made me want to blow off! All of what was inside of me, swirling and dividing in me. Burying the side of me that I loved the most! I was a bastard and a blasphemy. Harsh words for a girl of 3. They said them when they baptized me.

The Girl He Loves So Much by shikagupta170

Suddenly I turned around. And I shouted loudly. Mr. Devil is standing there staring at me and narrowing his eyebrows. What the hell he is doing. I'm in the towel. You ,what are you doing here. Damian - I could ask the same thing. Angelina - I grabbed the flower vase. What are you doing in my room. Damian - that flower vase costs more money than you have ever seen in your life. I advise you to put it down. Angelina- I kept it down. His eyes are traveling through my length of my body. I feel naked under his gaze. I cleared my throat. Now tell me why you are here. Suddenly a book fallen from his hands. It's from my favorite novel. I didn't no you read. Damian - a lot of things you don't know about me. Angelina -he started walking closer to me. And I stepped back and I hitted the counter. Our bodies are only few inches away. He whispered in my ear. For instance someone probably more.... Dressed. Shit !the towel. I cleared my throat. I should get dressed. He putted his hands on the kitchen counter leaning towards me as my breath quickens and heart is racing from the proximity of my body. He winked and said you should... Yes.. And why I am not moving. Damian - is there any problem, Ms. Angelina. Angelina- no Damian - but you are blushing. Angelina - and I hate myself for that. I slightly pushed him. Please you are too close to me. Damian - am I making you uncomfortable angelina What happens if two different personalities meet. Will they stay or apart. Read it further to know the story. And I promise it is a beautiful love story. Will they fall in love ? Will his opinion changes regarding women? Will he finally gets his broken princess or destiny plays it's part? Read it further to know this beautiful story and experience the greatest romance between them ..........

Everything Hurts by analiciapaloma

I knew what was coming later tonight, not only at home, but on the way there. I knew that reacting right now would just make it worse though. So I kept quiet and pretended that I was not dreading when I would be alone with the man that stood beside me, wondering when it became so normal to do so. Jason and Alicia have the perfect relationship from the outside looking in, but Alicia has kept her wounded spirit and body hidden well. After another one of Jason's violent rages that is impossible to hide, Alicia is finally able to get away from the abuse though. In the process of healing, she begins to relearn what trust, compassion, and safety are once again - that is, until Jason discovers her whereabouts. All Rights Reserved © Copyrights analiciapaloma 2014 © 2017 edits by Analicia Feliciano Book Cover Design by Analicia Feliciano (FIRST FOUR CHAPTERS *ORIGINAL AND UNEDITED* AVAILABLE HERE. PUBLISHED E-BOOK/PAPERBACK EDITION AVAILABLE ON AMAZON. LINK IN BIO.)

Evolution by andshesmiles

There are a lot of things you don't really think about until they happen to you. Take rape, for instance. I always thought, "That won't happen to me. I have a boyfriend. I trust him. He would never take advantage of me like that..." I couldn't have been more wrong. Love in this day and age is often confused for manipulation and abuse. The warning signs are here. The things we say will tell us everything that is wrong. You are worth more than what you think you are. It's not your fault. If they tell you otherwise, get out. Burn the bridge. Always remember someone is waiting for you to walk into their life. Someone needs you. Someone loves you. Getting away from all of the wrong people and finding the right ones could save you. I can promise you right now that it saved me. These are the journal entries and selected poems from my first experience of love that left a unpleasant taste in my mouth- quite literally. I am putting this out for the whole world to see because I hope everyone will learn from my experience. People can see. We have no excuses to continue living our lives in ignorance. ...WARNING... HARMFUL THEMES INCLUDING MENTION OF SUICIDE, SELF HARM, AND RAPE. THIS HAS EXPLICIT CONTENT. RECOVERY AND AWARENESS IS THE PURPOSE OF SHARING. DO NOT READ IF THESE THEMES ARE OFFENSIVE OR HARMFUL TO YOU.

Addicted by BD_Connoll

"You have no idea how badly I want to make love to you," he responds with a shake of his head. "I love you so much," he continues and my heart melts. "I love you," I whisper back. "Okay, I'm going to make love to you now, Angel. It will hurt a little, so let me know if it hurts too much," he says and leans down to kiss me. "I'll be gentle," he tells me. Keeping his eyes locked on mine he shifts his hips forward slightly and enters inside of me. My mouth widens as he enters, and I feel a slight pinch. He was right, it does hurt, but it's not terrible. "Christ! You're the sun!" he calls out. I watch his face crumble. He buries his face in my neck and then he's above me again, his hands on my cheeks again. ... For 20 year old Alison Scott, love was never something she deemed herself worthy of. Not until he came along. With his tousled brown hair, lean muscular body and smile that ignited everything south of her body; he was unbearably attractive and intimidating to Alison. She thought he could never be interested in someone like her, until he was. Was living in the same household together with someone you want and need such a great idea? As they embark on this journey together, Alison discovers her own desires as well as all the secrets Isaac keeps. You will become addicted to Addicted. Warning: 'Addicted' contains graphic depiction of violence, sexuality, strong language, mature themes, and drug references. Reader Discretion is advised. BOOK 1: ADDICTED BOOK 2: CRAVED (in the making)

Love Misunderstood by SophieLeo03

I only ever met one man I'd call truly noble. He was a man who was misunderstood and worthy of the world, yet everyone saw him differently. That was until I saw his true colours. The more I caught his eye the more he noticed me. We would pass each other, I would always stare a little longer at his back, wondering his story. People used to move out of the hallways if they saw him approaching whereas people would come and talk to me. He kept to himself, I was never alone, he had no friends, I was friends with everyone, I never saw him talk to anyone I spoke to many. we were polar opposites. At least that's what I thought until that day in the library, that is where I will start this story. Everyone is different, I hate the word "different", I much prefer the word unique. Unique is the only way to describe him. This is not just a story about love, it is about helping two souls who act differently but are the same on the inside, it shows the messy parts that aren't shown in movies, the tragedy, and the comedy but most of all the sizzling romance between two broken people who became one. Who is this story about? Caden James. But this is not just his story, It is ours.

𝓐𝓵𝓵 𝓑𝓮𝓬𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝓣𝔀𝓸 𝓟𝓮𝓸𝓹𝓵𝓮 𝓕𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓘𝓷 𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮 by Synonymous_Boost

"I think you're mistaking something... Listen to me..." "These are my feelings, not yours. How the hell can you even think I'm mistaking it?" •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• "Why don't you understand? That's not how it works..." "Why do I have to understand how others work? Like, I've my own feelings to think about..." ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Earth : Where LGBT 'type of love' is struggling to get acknowledged well. Here, even a normal man can't love a woman without intervention from society. Kepler- 22b : Where LGBT love is welcomed as a natural phenomenon. But a man can't love a woman. Which place is better? It's 'love' just 'love'? What is 'type of love'? Why can't people just live naturally with just this emotion? And, is it a sin to love? ______________________________ 𝚆𝚎 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚔𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚞𝚗𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕, 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚌𝚑 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚜 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚋𝚞𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚏𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚜, 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚛𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚋𝚘𝚠𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚟𝚎𝚜 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚍. -------------------------- 𝓣𝔀𝓸 𝓭𝓲𝓯𝓯𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓵𝓭𝓼. 𝓕𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓭𝓲𝓯𝓯𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝓹𝓮𝓸𝓹𝓵𝓮. 𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓼𝓪𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝔂𝓹𝓮 𝓸𝓯 𝓮𝓶𝓸𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷. 𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓭𝓲𝓯𝓯𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓷𝓬𝓮 𝓲𝓷 𝓸𝓾𝓽𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓼. ꧁𓊈𒆜🅻🅾🆅🅴...𒆜𓊉꧂ Witness what type of story unfolds when these people fall in love with someone who wasn't 'allowed' to love 'like that' in the first place.

Mirrored by ryuwritings321

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Unconditional Love by ShantaAddison

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SPARKS

.....He finished explaining his story about what happened in Newyork. Somehow this therapy session was going well, he has even reduced drinking..... " well you did good and your still doing great." But still he wasn't sure he's been feeling a little out of place " I just wanted to ask lately I've been feeling not myself is this some kind of trauma thing?" " well...Mr Jones how do you feel?" The therapist asks him " actually I feel as if my adrenaline rush is thrilling, sometimes my heart beats fast and......I can't...breath..and thats when there's this-" He laid eyes closed and relaxed "- tingling feeling in you" His therapist finished with a brief sigh. " yeah...that's how I feel.....is it...serious?" He worried "no Mr Jones...what you're feeling is normal for every man, its what we call sparks...you yourself I think you know what it means....the only question is."............ "who exactly it is that you feel this things around?" There was a brief silence and a painful feeling knowing exactly who it was................a certain raven haired girl.