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Everything's An Illusion // Phan

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Reads 20,201
Votes 843
Parts 20
Time 1h 49m

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Dan & Phil meet in a psychiatric hospital. They find both sadness and happiness in each other. Suicidal and broken, will they learn to fix each other or will they break each other even more?

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this story includes a lot of triggering features that may be upsetting to some readers, please be careful if you read ~ if you need any help please don't be afraid to message me.

(this story is named/ based off of Everything's An Illusion by Mayday Parade)All Rights Reserved

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