Two. (Phan)
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Last published Thu, Dec 24, 2015
I was so, so fucked up, and he still loved me.
Poetry is happy and sad, raw and beautiful, but it could never be real.
Not like Phil, at least.
I loved him.
Oh god, i loved him.
More then any poem ever written.
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