Sad Song (Dan and Phil)
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Dan Howell. A teenage boy with depression, self harm, and a very rare disease of butterfingers. Also has an obsession with llamas.
Phil Lester. A teenage boy with eyes that could make the moon jealous, has an amazing talent for making people smile when they have gone through the roughest crap ever. Also has an obsession with house plants.
Both of them? They love to make Youtube videos.
Dan is all over the place.
Phil is all in order. He helps any one that needs it.
What happens when Dan meets Phil?
Does a new relationship blossom?
Can Phil fix Dan?
But what if Phil has secrets of his own?
Is this shell of his fake?
READ TO FIND OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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