Live as if I'd stayed...

I should have escaped when I had the chance. Now there is no turning back. There's more at stake than just my heart. Wherever I go he will undoubtedly be there, waiting patiently in the shadows, bringing with him all the darkness that I've come to know. We were very happy together at one point I suppose. Things were never simple, but things were good. I was happy I was young and in love. But that all stopped along time ago as soon as the "fun" started. He changes people, that's what he's good at, and he changed me. Things I said I'd never do I did without question whenever he'd ask. Then it happened and I swore to escape, but in this mess that I've made for myself there might not be one. Sometimes I wonder what would have been of me if I had stayed in that day. If I'd never met him. I've transferred schools, and moved cities. hell, I've even moved states yet no matter how hard I try I cannot escape because he follows. I'm trying to move on. Make up for my past mistakes. Live without the constant reminder of what I've done. Live as if I'd stayed... Yet there's a target on my head, And a price on my heart.