Special Things (Phan)
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Last published Wed, Oct 21, 2015
Summary: Dan has been hiding his struggles from Phil since they met, and as the monster grows stronger, his will to live gets weaker. He is just a shell and Phil is his nightlight and maybe love can overcome many things but not everything.
Wordcount: 8.8k (holy shit)
Genre: Angst, fluff, romance
Warnings: TW suicidal ideation, self harm, swearing
A/N: This is probably the most intense thing I’ve ever written. It’s dramatic and romantic and has a nice ending I promise but be safe and don’t read it if you’re sensitive to any of the warnings. Thank you so much, I hope you like it!
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