I Lost You

Since I was in my childhood days I really have a crush on my bestfriend she is Allyza. She is amazing, pretty and when she smile she can heal my pain. I was totally insane when I saw her and my heart will beat faster, every seconds it passed when I saw her presence but I dont want to let her feel that I like her, all I can do is just hide my feelings to her coz I dont want to destroy our friendship, so I' ll always pretended that I dont have a crush on her.
One day when I and Allyza took a ride on a bus and it was full but luckily theres a one seat that was available, so being a boy I let her sit in that chair and I was standing in front of her.
"Hey! Jason wanna sit on my legs?"
"Oh thanks but..."
"No its okay! here you can sit"