Cherishing Losts

Sometimes losing someone in more than one way is the only way to truly realize how much they really mean to you.
I watched him walk away from me in the pouring rain. There was no way to truly describe the pain i was feeling. I was shivering and drenched as i stood there in front of his house, watching him disappear in the distance. My tears hidden by the rain. Was this really how heartbreak felt. It was no doubt a familiar feeling. One i had always tried to escape from with sex. It was the only thing that helped me forget,my temporary escape,my solace. I went back inside,my heart still aching from the sudden events as i finally adnitted to myself that i was inlove with my best friend, Nick Styles.