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Lost and Insecure (Larry Stylinson AU)

LightningandMoments

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Reads 473,519
Votes 17,460
Parts 21
Time 2h 35m

LightningandMoments

angst hallucination harm harry highschool hospital johanna larry louis lourry one schizophrenia self stylinson suicide

Harry Styles was just a sixteen year old boy afraid to leave his bedroom. That's normal, right?

Except it's not. Harry suffers from Schizophrenia. His Mum had been told by doctors, when he was only seven years old, that he was 'sick in the mind'.

Schizophrenia: A of a group of psychotic disorders usually characterized by withdrawal from reality, illogical patterns of thinking, delusions, and hallucinations, and accompanied in varying degrees by other emotional, behavioral, or intellectual disturbances.

Harry Styles had suffered from depression, hallucinated and heard voices all of his life, voices whispering to him that he was not worth the air he breathed, and for years various coloured pills had kept them mostly tamed.   

Somehow Harry had managed to nab Louis Tomlinson along the way. Beautiful, excitable, pretty perfect  Louis Tomlinson. Louis is the only person who gets him, and he is the only person who Harry feels safe around, because Louis keeps all of the voices away - Louis loves him, and promised Harry that he loved him. Louis swore he would always be there.   

So what happens when Harry's rose-tinted glasses get torn away, and all he is left with is the reality that even love can't keep him safe from the voices.   

Because Louis, pretty perfect Louis Tomlinson, can't keep his promise.


DISCLAIMER: I don't own anyone in this story, it is purely fiction.All Rights Reserved

angst hallucination harm harry highschool hospital johanna larry louis lourry one schizophrenia self stylinson suicide

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✔️STRONG [L.S] by rikirriki

"H-Harry please!" I cried, my hands placed protectively in front of my face. His eyes darkened, and he grabbed my wrists, pinning them against the wall. His breath rolled over my face, the faint scent of alcohol rolling up my nose. "Shut up." He growled. His short nails dug into my arm and I winced in pain. He released me, and grabbed a handful of my hair instead. I shrieked in pain as he threw me to the ground. Tears pricked my eyes and I squeezed my eyes shut. "Get up." He said. I opened my eyes, and scrambled to my feet quickly. He grabbed the front of my shirt to pull me closer, leaning down to my level. His eyes burned straight through mine. Chills went down my spine and I bit my bottom lip out of fear. "How many times do I have to tell you? You. Are. Mine." -------------------------- In a complex narrative, where Harry wrestles with the voices of schizophrenia, the story unfolds with uncertainty. The question lingers: Will Harry succumb to the relentless voices, potentially breaking down Louis, or will Louis summon the strength to confront the darkness that threatens him and stand resolute in his own defense? The outcome rests upon the delicate interplay of their intertwined fates, a story of mental struggles and strength yet to fully reveal itself.

Survive [Larry Stylinson] by zeldadirection

"Louis. You're my guardian angel. You saved my life." I say shakily. My voice is unstable and I can't even recognize it anymore. I squeeze his soft warm hand. His eyes scan every inch of my face before gently pushing my curls back. He shakes his head blankly. Unable to pull his stare away from my lips. "No Harry." He says. "You saved mine." ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° After the sudden death of Harrys sister, Gemma, he finds himself on the top of a building in New York. Him, his mom and his horrible stepdad had lived there for the past year. The torture of his depression and recent loss caused Harry to run away from home. His plan was to commit suicide, but as he was standing on the edge of the rooftop a blue eyed guy rescued him. Louis Tomlinson. Harry then refused to return home so Louis offered him shelter. Let's just say that it sure doesn't take long for Harry to fall in love with this stranger that he's now sharing an apartment with. How would Harry have known that this boy would not only save his life, but change it forever? ~All you need to do is survive~

I'm not Crazy (Larry) by tattoo_Larry

Louis Tomlinson: 24 been in a mental asylum from when he was 18 when his parents found him on the floor off the bathroom with his wrist slit. His family called him crazy said he only wanted attention. They did not know he had depression from being bullied all the time in high school how they keep at it after,going to his job and telling him he was a ugly fag. he was a loner had no one but his sisters tell they turned there back on him and did not even try to stop his parents from taking him away and putting him and this new hell hole of a place called south alexander hospital for the mentally insane. Harry styles: 20 put into south alexander hospital for killing his mom step dad and sister. saying that he was framed and it was a colored man who tied him up and put him into the basement the judge said he was not right in the head and should get help. he has no one and cant get the image of all the dead bodies out of his brain it keeps replaying. the blood the tears the worst part is how he could only tell one person the story because he had to being selective mute only being only to talk to people he trust. ****** HELLO LARRY!!!!!! ok so this has depression self harm and may trigger some so don't read if it might because I love you and want you all to be happy. if you ever need someone to talk to just message me I might can help. this is boy on boy!!!! // Book 1 (Book under slow editing)

Loving You's The Antidote || l.s. ✓ by twinklingpisces

If you're looking for a fic with better writing and less irritating characters PLEASE take a look at my other fics instead (not 'I'm Fine', and preferably not 'To Be So Lonely'). // Harry Styles, a 16 year old boy, attends Holmes Chapel Comprehensive School. Unfortunately for him, his time there isn't exactly smooth sailing. Louis Tomlinson bullies Harry. As do the majority of the school. It's not something Harry deserves, but it's something he is unable to escape. Whether he's at home, or at school, someone is always taunting him. Will Harry ever find a way to stop the pain? Will Louis realise his actions have consequences? // July 2020 - October 2020 twitter & instagram= twinklingpiscess

Past lives by itstilliswhatitis

Louis hated Harry. He was walking around like he was superior, thinking he was so hot and sexy. Well, Louis could see right through it. They had been in a band together for almost two years and Louis avoided him at any cost. What he couldn't avoid on the other hand was how fucking clumsy Harry was. One night Harry tripped on stage and pushed Louis over the edge. While he was unconscious a woman appeared and told him that he had an old soul and that he had lived many lives. She said that she wanted to show him some of those lives to make him realize something. It wasn't like he had anything better to do, being unconscious and all that so he agreed. So he went on some freaky journey in his mind and he couldn't even get away from Harry when he was passed out because every life he had lived included one certain green-eyed boy by his side... Purely fictional. Trigger warning: death

My Rock by sweatpantsandfringe

TW/CW: Self-harm and suicide and sexual content A/N: This is my first fic it was originally published in 2012 on Movellas. I give it a trigger warning because it deals with self-harm and suicide attempts and thoughts. complete version Louis Tomlinson is a senior in college. He's popular, outgoing, and always willing to help anyone in need. Harry Styles is an introverted sophomore who receives constant harassment and bullying because of who he is. He doesn't fit in, he's shy, has no friends, and no real family to confide in; the fact that he's gay doesn't help matters. He's just a blip on everyone's radar, floating by, but a punching bag to those who loved reminding him how much of a loser he really was. When Harry was hospitalized months before for a suicide attempt, Louis was assigned to him through the Big Brother program. Will Louis be able to help Harry? Will Harry be able to let Louis in?

$Lies {Larry Stylinson} by _Loving1D_$

BOOK 1 What can you do when your foster parents have been abusing you your whole life. Threatning that if you tell anyone they'll kill you. What can you do, but act as if nothing's wrong. Louis Tomlinson goes through this everyday and decided years ago that if he pushes everyone away no one can hurt him, but what happens when he's paired with the new kid, Harry Styles, for a science project? Can Harry figure out a way to help Louis or will Louis continue to reject Harry like he does to everyone else in his life.

If I Could Fly by carriejamesjll

After years of being Harry Styles best friend, Louis doesn't see how anything could possibly come between them. After all, they love each other.... a little too much it would seem. When Louis has to move to L.A for a while, and leave his best friend behind, he never expects so much to happen whilst he is gone. He certainly doesn't expect to loose his best friend on top of it all. Then years later, having long since lost contact, an unexpected situation brings the pair face to face once again. Will they find it in them to forgive one another... maybe find the start to something new. After all, if Harry could fly, it would be right back home to Lou.

These Small Hours. (Larry Stylinson One Shot: May trigger.) by spiritualwt

Harry and Louis never had secrets, they never kept anything hidden form each other. That's always how it's been. That's what Louis thought, at least. Harry knew something different. After a concert, a signing, being out with the boys, or just everyday really, he into the bathroom, locking the door and repeating his everyday cycle. He cut, anywhere he'd like. Mostly his arms. Then, he'd force himself to throw up any meal or snack he had that day. He would swallow two pain killers, that he saved for the night he couldn't take life anymore, to make him feel numb. He comes home one night, crying to Louis and spilling everything to him. After that, so many things happen in those small hours; the small hour that will change everybody's lives, whether it be good or bad. In the end, it doesn't matter how someone acts, it's their heart that really matters.

Waking Up Alone (L.S) by larrycocainex

"Nothing makes you hurt like hurting who you love" Love shouldn't hurt, loving somebody with everything you have shouldn't make you feel like you're dying. Louis feels like he's drowning. He should have known where this was going from the start, he should have been prepared. Now he's waking up in an empty bed, some days he doesn't want to even wake up again. There's a hole in his heart; it's in the shape of Harry. Nothing he does can fill it. Drugs, alcohol, pouring out his heart into songs that Harry probably won't ever hear. When Louis is with him, he feels like he's in heaven. Being alone, that's what he feels he deserves, at least Harry can be happier without him. Maybe if they met at a different time, under different circumstances, he could have saved them. Louis had to do what was best for Harry, but it kills him a little everyday. Louis sees his smile everyday, but he knows it's no longer for him. Someone else makes Harry happier, but Louis wanted it to be him. They could have had forever. Louis would have given Harry everything. "Forget what I said, it's not what I meant" Harry had tried to say, but Louis knew that wasn't the truth. After everything they've been through, Louis still loves him.

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✔️STRONG [L.S]

"H-Harry please!" I cried, my hands placed protectively in front of my face. His eyes darkened, and he grabbed my wrists, pinning them against the wall. His breath rolled over my face, the faint scent of alcohol rolling up my nose. "Shut up." He growled. His short nails dug into my arm and I winced in pain. He released me, and grabbed a handful of my hair instead. I shrieked in pain as he threw me to the ground. Tears pricked my eyes and I squeezed my eyes shut. "Get up." He said. I opened my eyes, and scrambled to my feet quickly. He grabbed the front of my shirt to pull me closer, leaning down to my level. His eyes burned straight through mine. Chills went down my spine and I bit my bottom lip out of fear. "How many times do I have to tell you? You. Are. Mine." -------------------------- In a complex narrative, where Harry wrestles with the voices of schizophrenia, the story unfolds with uncertainty. The question lingers: Will Harry succumb to the relentless voices, potentially breaking down Louis, or will Louis summon the strength to confront the darkness that threatens him and stand resolute in his own defense? The outcome rests upon the delicate interplay of their intertwined fates, a story of mental struggles and strength yet to fully reveal itself.