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The Suicide Equation

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For the last month I've had nothing but dark thoughts. I finally decided to speak to someone about it. I went to Mr.Harn and told him everything. 

All he did was hold me and bring me to the schools councilor. He told her the story I was able to utter. She called my mother and arranged for me to be put into therapy. 

I spoke with her for half an hour.

"You've been through way to much for a girl your age!" She said in astonishment.

"I know." I replied.

"How are you alive?" She asked with both worry and curiosity.

"I honestly don't know." I spoke the truth.

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Devil May Cry ✔ by petra_the_first

She was the angel and I was the devil. I knew better than to fall for a good girl like her but something about her lured me hard. Maybe because she was hard to get or the only one who was better than me in my own game. I would be the one breaking hearts but I guess tables turn. Her love was torture for me but a torture I enjoyed. She had wings no one can see but I saw. I had all the bad habits and did all kinds of mistakes and everybody witness excpet she uncovered a side of me I learned to keep hiding. When I thought that love was empty she showed me that is was special. She was my angel and I was her devil. Her love taught me that everyone gets hurt and everyone feels pain. Even people with careless attitudes cry somedays. Her love gave me what life took. Her love hurt me more than life ever could. Because of her I now know that even the Devil May Cry

What if...? Book One, Part 1: Neverland (A Peter Pan rewrite by Jae) by JAE_Wrote_This

"Who are you?" I demand. The boy in front of me replies, "That's not how this works, love." I freeze. That phrase. That voice. It can't be. I look up but he's just a cloaked silhouette. The rustling stops when boys surrounding us step from their hiding spots and light lanterns. Every single one of them masked and cloaked. Except the one in front of me. The lamps lit, and I see his face. "Whoa," slips from my lips as I stare at the boy in front of me. His eyes widen and his jaw almost, just almost, drops. With his guard down for that one instant I lose all fear and gain control. "You!" I yell suddenly overflowing with anger. My stomach heats with rage. I fight to stand, stronger this time with anger as fuel. He backs up, his breath increasing. Obviously, uneasy, I take it as a win and almost stand all the way. "You. What are you doing here? How did you find this place!" He switched to angry. "You! You're the reason! They put me back because of you! It was all cause of you! It was your fault! All of it!" I'm so angry I yell only what I can. My thoughts flying through my head I can only yell unexplained nonsense. I've never felt anger like this before. The red glow lightly pours off my own skin and I take notice to it. I compare it to the glow coming off of him. Suddenly, it's an instinct to allow the anger to explode and in doing so the red glow is taken from his chest as I absorb it all and throw it out in all directions. I yank down away from the boy holding me just as the red glow gets sucked from him, absorbed into my hands, and then thrown out in a sphere of red glow. All boys stumbling but not by much and the one holding me gets knocked back, I'm free. "You die now, Peter Pan!"

When reality splits [completed] by KatMoon11

All I want is to be alone. I wish that no one existed. My name is Zeina. I don't talk much. Not at all actually. Well not really. I sign or write things down in my notebook. I can speak. But I really only speak to those I trust. Today I'm gonna die. Don't feel bad for me, I am choosing my fate after all. Im tired of living. It's exhausting really living up to your own expectations and the expectations of others. I'm sick of shaving every inch of my limbs, plucking my eye brows, doing my hair, getting dress. Honestly I'm sick of people. My hair is long and dark brown with blonde in it. I have bangs that hang over my face and ever so slightly across my eyes. I don't have friends. My family sucks. So if you're reading this I have a question for you. Are you an outcast too. Everyday I come home from school, take sleeping pills, and go to sleep. Now I just want to sleep. Infinitely. (A/N I'm currently editing this!)

Maybe by IronyDreams

An internal voice whispered, "Call him." But I chose not to. I dismissed it once more, saying, "He never liked me anyway." Yet the dilemma lingered. "But maybe he does. The way he looks at you... it's different." Out of nowhere, he glanced my way. My heartbeat quickened, sending shivers down my spine. I averted my gaze, pretending to look around. "Has he noticed me? No, wait-oh my god." --- After switching high schools, Nina discovered a new way of life. She fell in love, made wonderful friends, and everything seemed perfect. But Ethan-a popular boy who never focused on anyone but her-was the object of her hatred. He was always there, always keeping her safe. He used to annoy her endlessly. She hated him deeply. Until she didn't. For a while, she was content with her high school experience. That is, until something mysterious turned her world upside down. Forced to move to a new city, Nina had to cut ties with everyone she once knew. Eight years later, fate brings her face-to-face with him again. "Ethan..." He's the key to everything-the truths she never knew. When she was lost in the dark, he always held the light. But now, things are different. She despises him. He's colder than ever. Or perhaps she fears him. Fears that he'll leave her again. Will their lives ever return to normal after everything they've endured? "Maybe?" "Maybe yes. Maybe no?" --- Started: 8 November 2021 Ended: 19 December 2022 Rewritten: December 2024 --- ### Rankings Goals So Far: #1 Adolescente #1 given up #1 blinddates #1 pretend #10 twistedromance #50 high school romance --- ### Notice: This is my first published story, and it contains numerous grammatical errors and bad editing. If you're interested in the storyline, please don't judge me too harshly based on this book. Better stories are on the way-I'm still learning and improving every day. Enjoy! ✨

Fading Away ✅ by kia_spens18

Overthinking makes the voices in your head imminent and you begin to listen to them. You listen to them because they are the only thing there,the only thing telling you how it is. So you believe what they say; believe you're not worth the good things, believe you deserve the negative things that happen to you, believe that you could have stopped a bad incident from happening and believe it was your fault And that belief grows, it grows unto depressed thoughts and feelings and you start sinking until you become a shadow of your former self *********** Alexa sees life as a gloomy abyss of darkness Yes,she moved to a new city in a new state but it didn't change the mistake she did. Her past which was filled with colour is a contrast to her present bleak life The voices speak for her,her nightmares are a reminder and her attacks are her punishments Or so... she believes Blaze doesn't think his life is anything than his version of perfect He has a girlfriend,he is surrounded by two friends he would do anything for and his grades are always...perfect Until Alexa barges into his version of a perfect life and unravels the imperfections. But she's not the only one unraveling imperfections He sees the fear in her eyes,he feels a sense of protection over her and one question clouds his mind Who is Alexa Magnus and what happened to her? They'll both need help, care, confrontations from the past, patience, friendship and as they navigate through this roller coaster, they'll find discoveries that'll leave them shocked at the end. Trigger warning: Incidents of self harm is mentioned. Cover by @saphire_skye ***********************************************

Just Stay by LexiRein

"What the hell is this?" Zander snatched my wrist and pulls up the arm of my sleeve. "No don't!" I panic not wanting him to ever find out about this, but it's too late when I hear him hiss out. "Why?" he whispers but when I don't answer he tilts my chin up, so I look in his eyes. "Why Ari?" Anger boils inside me and I yank my arm out of his grip. "None of your fucking business!" I yell and I hate that we are drawing attention. "Just stay the hell away from me!" I rush past him not hearing the words he said. Maybe if I did things would have been completely different. Just one last time of self-harm and you can end it all. Would that be such a bad thing? Maybe finally all the hurt and pain will go away. For someone who had everything she could ever want, loses it all and herself in a blink of an eye. Can she learn to cope, or does she give into temptation? Maybe...just maybe there is someone who will make her Just Stay. Copyright © 2023 All rights reserved. This book or any portion of this book may not be used or be reproduced in any matter whatsoever without the express written permission of the publisher. Except for brief quotations in book reviews.

Locked In by MichaelaCilley

You don't believe me anyways. You don't see me throwing away my inhibitions or filling up my online shopping cart. You don't see me diving into new life goals and careers and areas of study. You don't see my cry to myself in the car when my chest sinks in and my head gets crushed in a vice. You don't feel the panic in my stomach whenever I must make human contact. And you sure don't see how hard I try. How I wake up every morning and apply my mask. My work mask- to conceal all of this. But.... It's been the same mask for many years And my mask is wearing thin. My sadness, my anger, my paranoia and grand euphoria are trying to become a part of your world too. A world where it's not welcome. A world where it's not understood, where it's frowned upon.

Abigail by hmarieh1218

(In editing) She's depressed. She's anorexic. She's suicidal. She's insecure. Abigail has grown up with her three brothers and James, never meeting her parents, who abandoned her at birth. Her brothers were left to take care of her and keep a roof over their heads. Everyday they struggle to take care of Abigail, while working to keep them in their home. Life for them is hard. Life for Abigail is even harder. She has a dark mind and not by choice. Somewhere along the way she's developed these feelings of loneliness and hopelessness. Everyday is a struggle for her and just getting out of bed is a success. She meets Zach, a bad boy with a bad reputation. He starts off as a tutor, just to help her out, out of pity. But eventually feelings get involved and Abigail finds herself liking a boy for the first time in her life. Things get serious and she somehow learns about his drug dealing business. Everything gets hectic and Abigail doesn't know what to do with her life anymore. Or if she even wants to live.

The New Me by thebarbiegirl95

High school is supposed to be the greatest years of our lives but so far for me it's been the worst my sophomore year I had only 2 best friends one embarrassed me in front of the whole school saying how much of a loser I was. My twin brother ignores me even he thinks I'm a loser and his best friend who I have been in love with for years and who was one person I always knew I could count on stops speaking to me after I declare my love for him and gets with the school bully who's one of the people who make my life hell, after all that I left and moved in with my aunt states away. when my senior year comes around I decide to face my fears and go back to my old high school and show them the new and improved me.

Devil's Pawn (Completed) by TheWeekDa

Meet Jolie Mitchell. The eldest daughter to a family that despises her. Despite the wealth and riches, Joe lacks something that the rest of her family possess...a back bone. She was pushover Joe, the freak of the family. She was always the quiet one, either whispering or not speaking at all. She was weak. Then there's River Dallas. The one guy who everyone knew had more money than god and an attitude to match. He was a charming guy with a smile that could stop traffic...and anger that could make you shake in your boots. He was the exact opposite of Joe. Well what happens when one day, after overhearing an argument between River and his mother, him and Joe spend an entire afternoon together learning the ins and outs of themselves? Will they pretend it didn't happen? Or will the continue to explore different parts of themselves and each other and demolish their demons and insecurities along the way? Read along and unlock the deep secrets of these devilishly rich kids with demons the size of their check books.

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Devil May Cry ✔ cover

What if...? Book One, Part 1: Neverland (A Peter Pan rewrite by Jae) cover

When reality splits [completed] cover

Fading Away ✅ cover

Just Stay cover

Locked In cover

The New Me cover

Devil's Pawn (Completed) cover

Devil May Cry ✔

She was the angel and I was the devil. I knew better than to fall for a good girl like her but something about her lured me hard. Maybe because she was hard to get or the only one who was better than me in my own game. I would be the one breaking hearts but I guess tables turn. Her love was torture for me but a torture I enjoyed. She had wings no one can see but I saw. I had all the bad habits and did all kinds of mistakes and everybody witness excpet she uncovered a side of me I learned to keep hiding. When I thought that love was empty she showed me that is was special. She was my angel and I was her devil. Her love taught me that everyone gets hurt and everyone feels pain. Even people with careless attitudes cry somedays. Her love gave me what life took. Her love hurt me more than life ever could. Because of her I now know that even the Devil May Cry