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He Speaks Suicide (Phan AU)

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TRIGGER WARNING: If self harm, blood, abuse, suicide, etc disturb you, then maybe this isn't the fic for you. I have plenty of others if you don't like the subject of this one.

Do you ever just want to be a raindrop? Falling and falling until you hit the ground and that's when it all ends. 


**This fanfic will contain many mentions of lyrics to many bands in the chapters. just thought I'd give the heads up d( *u* )b **All Rights Reserved

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