why me....?
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MatureOngoing<5 mins
Last published Sun, Oct 25, 2015
I know no one will probably read what I have to say because its a lot.. But, I just had to get this out of me I can't take it in anymore. Alright here it goes.
It happened on February 11, 2014. We were shy we didn't talk much I know but we would look up and smile at each other no matter how wrong our day went. We were in love. I could tell by the way we looked at each other.
To this day I still feel bad that I did it that I didn't tell or show or be honest with you why I did it I guess I was just to afraid to see how you would react. You told me you were afraid of losing me and I was afraid of losing you. Later on in our relationship we had started to drift away I got depressed and didn't know what to do how to tell you. So I just took faith in a blade that would end all my worries and sadness I never wanted to tell you! I never wanted to hurt you! But, it wasn't my fault you saw I tried my best to hide it from you.
He saw my arm and started to cry it was bleeding still and the cut
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