God Only Knows
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Last published Mon, Oct 26, 2015
Hey. . . I'm Ali, and I deserve to die. That's actually a pretty morbid start now that I've got it down on paper. . .But it's true. The things I've done, seen, thought. . . no one who's experienced them deserves to live. Especially not me. I'm evil. Simple as that. I'm a mistake. An error. I shouldn't be. Or, that's what I thought. Then the new girl came to town. Naive and innocent looking, I made every attempt to steer clear of Amber Flatts. But, for some reason, God had other plans.
(NOTE: This book deals with basically every topic possibly offensive, including but not limited to: sex, drug abuse, rape, addiction, violence, depression, self harm, suicide, underage drinking, religious segregation, racism, sexism, lesbian and gay sex (not offensive but if ya don't like it get out).)
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