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arilovescookies

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I suffer from extreme depression. I guess my angery brother and neglectful parents have a role to play in it, but I believe I'm simply too weak to endure any hardship that occurs in my life. I've been ignored, abused, and sexually assaulted but none of that means anything. The fact I'm too pathetic to do anything about it means everything though. 
It means that because I can't prevent myself from getting hurt, means that everyone is going to continue to make me fall deeper into this black hole known as depression.
My friends say that I just need to find the right person in my life to fix me.
But why would anyone want to help something so disgusting and burdened like me?All Rights Reserved

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The Run and Go (Josh Dun X Reader) by strangelyastonished

Having a crush on one of your closest friends is not easy. You want to tell them how you feel but what if they don't feel the same? Will your friendship be ruined forever? Why do crushes have to be so complicated? Three words could either change your whole life in a good way or a bad way. (I'm bad at writing descriptions, I know.)

LIVING IS NOT AN ART by AdamsWeek

"It hurts so much to stay alive, there are times when it would be much better not to wake up when I am dreaming, for in this cruel world I can never rest." Michael, he could be that kid you see on the street and you wouldn't pay attention to him because... Who's going to pay attention to a crazy kid? Besides, he could be someone who disappears and no one would remember him. Michael... could become your worst nightmare or your greatest sadness; because he reminds you of how horrible life is and you don't want to feel that way. Michael, the perfect image of unhappiness, just by looking at him you don't know how to act and if you see him in the background you become a sea of feelings. How does it feel to have someone who doesn't look at you as a problem but as the center of the world? Would you be Michael's friend in his little world? "To all of those who once told me that life is beautiful"

Altered by LuellaOpal

Have you ever met someone who alters the course of your life? For good or for bad, they've come in, given and taken, and then- BOOM! Your life was never the same. There's always a change, an altering of reality. When you meet those people, the reality that you've known your whole life is suddenly gone and a new one has taken its place. When those moments happen, there's no going back. You can try to return to the way things were but nothing, and I mean nothing, can take you back to exactly how it was. That's what happened to us. I think that's why we're still trying so desperately to get back to some sort of normalcy. Four years later and we're still on the ground, crawling, in search of the happiness that was lost that June. Summers will never be the same. Midnight walks through my neighborhood will never be the same. Field parties with bonfires and loud music will never be the same. I still don't know why you left and what lead you to the decision you made. What I do know is that we're here. We're alive and we're pushing forward to the future. A future that you're not a part of. But in some ways, I'm glad you're not a part of it. I just wish it wasn't like this. *** TRIGGER WARNING*** SA, abuse, suicide, substance abuse, and mental illness. This is a complete story that is much like life; fast, full of surprises, and not always how we want it to be. This has been a project of mine for over three years. It was self-published on Amazon, but after some issues in publication, I decided to just upload it on here. I hope you fall in love with these characters like I have. The friends in this story are trying to make names for themselves, figure out who they are, who they can trust, how to love, and how to separate themselves from a restrictive community. As in any coming of age story, they will experience growing pains... but will they survive them before its too late? PLEASE READ THE TRIGGER WARNINGS.

My Mind Is My Enemy by Ngqavu

Struggling with undiagnosed mental illnesses can cause havoc in one's life but what happens when that person refuses to seek help; you can't help someone who refuses to help themselves. You just sit on the sidelines with hopes that they'll make it out alive. Disclaimer: This story contains content that may be triggering: *self-harm *suicide *drug use

Internet Crush. - A Josh Dun x Reader Fanfiction. by cosmictruce

[Please note that this story was written by a very inexperienced younger version of myself, in fact it is the first full length story I ever produced so excuse the quality. The only reason it is still available to read is due to the popularity it has received since being up, something I am forever grateful for.] Love is a strange thing. What's even stranger about love is the many ways it comes around. Follow the story of Josh Dun and Y/N as they find love over the beautiful thing called the Internet.

Outcast ✔️ by justanathergirl3

"You're hurting me..." I whispered. But his grip only got tighter as the pain got even more crucial. "It's what you get for stopping the party yesterday," Liam said. "I needed to," I murmured under my breath in the hopes that he would hear the weakness in my voice and let me go. But at last, it was only hoped that made me think that way. He didn't let go; he wouldn't let go until he taught a firm lesson. No matter how many times I ask and plead for forgiveness, he is never going to go until he is satisfied. "Were you jealous that you weren't invited? Is that why you had to sabotage the whole thing, uh?" he bit his teeth, his voice getting angrier and his hold on me crushing. "Ow.. please...," I said tears rolling down my eyes. He didn't say anything this time just watched me cry, and I could basically see the smirk forming on his lips in slow motion. This is what he wanted for me as if it was never enough for him to see me like this. I waited for him to say something anything, but instead, he let me go aggressively and pushing past me hard, causing me to lose balance and fall to the marble floor. I looked up to see everyone watching me struggle to get up. No one came to help, and I didn't expect them to they watched and laughed and even filmed, but no one came to my rescue. - The fake smiles, laughter, friends I am getting sick of it all. I always felt like I didn't belong anywhere with him gone. It was even worse. It was pathetic that I thought it's okay I will get through this, but I am slipping away falling slowly. The only reason I am still holding on is for my family. But he hurts me, bullies me, breaks me in ways I can't even describe. He has become the worst nightmare, and I can't wake up from it. There is no helping me from his sick and twisted games. After all, he believes I was the reason for the death of his best friend. But I have to hold on only one more year till I don't have to see him anymore. I need to survive as an outcast...

How I Learned to Love Myself{DISCONTINUED} by 20klopez

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✓The Only Spark In My Life (MuiTan - TanMui)✓ by Muichiro0san

I didn't expect anything like this to happen... just in minute everything shattered before my eyes, my world was falling apart. "what am I going to do now?!" Everything seemed so bland and dark after that moment. Everything seemed so... useless and everything was in pieces, small little broken pieces I couldn't repair.. "I'll be fine Mui, don't worry... doctors said that sooner or later I will be able to go back home" Those words that my brother said didn't help much... more like didn't help in the slightest. Every day I lived in fear of loosing another family member... the last family member, the last person I was staying alive for, the last person that helped me keep hopes up. "I am sorry" "My apologies but.. we can't hire you" "I am very sorry but you are not hired" Every single time I tried to get a job those were the only words that I heard... I couldnt get a job, the rent was already a lot of money and I had to pay my brothers medical bills too... I was loosing hope. Every single day was the same, waking up, going to school, trying to find work and crying myself to sleep... until one day... "you are a cute one, how about you'll give me some good time for a bit of cash~?" That sentence scared me but... I was in a need of money so desperately I... I agreed. From that point on I... I managed to get enough money but... I wasn't happy, I was feeling terrible, I wanted to die... every single time after someone fucked me I came home, exhausted, most of the time crying so much I passed out from exhaustion but... I kept on doing it... do save my brother... Life seemed so dark until I met him... Kamado Tanjiro.. new student in my class...

We are survivors by leah_hargreeves124

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The Run and Go (Josh Dun X Reader)

Having a crush on one of your closest friends is not easy. You want to tell them how you feel but what if they don't feel the same? Will your friendship be ruined forever? Why do crushes have to be so complicated? Three words could either change your whole life in a good way or a bad way. (I'm bad at writing descriptions, I know.)