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I Live On

arilovescookies

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Parts 8
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Reads 1,107
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Parts 8
Time 50m

arilovescookies

brother depression doctor dyke ex-friend fading fix help hospital hurt joshquincy music player suicide

I suffer from extreme depression. I guess my angery brother and neglectful parents have a role to play in it, but I believe I'm simply too weak to endure any hardship that occurs in my life. I've been ignored, abused, and sexually assaulted but none of that means anything. The fact I'm too pathetic to do anything about it means everything though. 
It means that because I can't prevent myself from getting hurt, means that everyone is going to continue to make me fall deeper into this black hole known as depression.
My friends say that I just need to find the right person in my life to fix me.
But why would anyone want to help something so disgusting and burdened like me?All Rights Reserved

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