personal journal
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Last published Thu, Oct 29, 2015
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hey guys, so I'm going to make a feelings journal kinda. I think it's going to be similar to blogging and later I might add my tumblr account . anyways I guess I'm pretty messed up. I have anxiety, an eating disorder, social anxiety, and depression. but I actually hasn't told a single person irl. also I'm closeted bisexual/pansexual. I live in the us. if you ever want to talk don't be afraid to send me a message, I'll try and answer.
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