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Mommy Wasn't There - A memoir in progress

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As a young child, I spent most of my waking hours wondering where I went wrong. 
Why did my mother lack the capability of expressing compassion toward me? 
I constantly wonder if my place on earth is meant to be. I still do.
Was I assigned the wrong set of parents? 

By the age of 15, I was left to fend for myself. 
Since then, I had to figure out how to fuel my faith so that I can attain the strength to survive. My soul is beyond exhausted but I keep on going.

It's been a difficult journey. 

I now wonder how much different my life would have been if mommy stuck around.All Rights Reserved

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Human Status by DanickaCastro

I live in a world where I am nameless. I live in a world where I do not matter except or unless I am owned by someone. I do not have rights, freedoms, joys, wishes, or aspirations. I am property. I was born and raised to belong to someone that will one day take me away like the fairy tale stories that I listened to everyday in the house I live in. I prayed every night that a handsome prince would come and take me to live in his castle just like in the books. I prayed that I would be a princess and have a kingdom just like in the books. But I was never told that the books were all lies. I was never told the true reason why I was a well sought after commodity. I was never told that I am not the only one like me. When I found out it was too late to save myself. To think and in less than 4 days I will be taken away from my current home and be in a home of my own. I sat on the simple wooden bed hoping that my owner was nice and kind. I hated to think about some of the stories that I heard about the other girls like me. I hated thinking about being exterminated because I made my owner unhappy. I thought to myself that I would try real hard to keep him happy. I remember the covenant of rules that would keep me and my owner happy. I would need to follow five rules. 1. Always obey my owner. 2. Always be available to my owner. 3. Never talk back. 4. Always agree with my owner. 5. I am not human so I cannot do human things. I wondered how pretty human women were. I was so nervous about my departure I nearly refused to leave my room. I could leave if there wasn’t anything wrong with me physically. I remember the den mother telling me not to do anything that would cause a refund or else I would be exterminated upon refund. My new owner had thirty days to return me. If he returned me and no one else was interested I would be exterminated. I would be killed because it would be thought that I was defective and no one would want a defective product.

His Shadow (Book I) by LokiBoreddd

Book I of 𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓭𝓸𝔀 𝓢𝓮𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓼 After feeling invisible for so long she finally was seen by the one boy that was supposed to be off limits. Little did she know falling for him would be the best and maybe worst thing she could have done in the long run. ***{Sneak Peak ONE}*** "Aurora, I don't want you back in my house if you are willing to act this way. You are no longer my child, I don't know who you are or what you have done with my daughter but you aren't her." My eyes start to water, great so I am apparently disowned, an ungrateful peace of shit and i'm not good enough for anyone. ***{Sneak Peak TWO}*** I look over at the door to see Juliano opening it. He walks over to me and says, "So we might have a slight problem." I look at him in confusion as he continues speaking, "Do you remember Lucian Kingston?" I nod. Of course I remember that creep. "Well he had something to do with your car accident." *** 𝓐𝓾𝓻𝓸𝓻𝓪 𝓑𝓵𝓪𝓴𝓮, 17, the girl that's always in her brothers shadow. The sweet, loving, smart girl who only gets the bare minimum and acts like she is completely fine. The beautiful brunette that falls for the Wide receiver on the football team thats also her brothers best friend. 𝓙𝓾𝓵𝓲𝓪𝓷𝓸 𝓒𝓸𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓸, 19, the boy that basically had it all but a relationship, party's all the time with Ashton Blake, plays football, an overprotective pain in the ass, ends up falling for the one girl that he shouldn't have. When will Aurora finally be able to shine? Why is Aurora in her brothers shadow? What will happen in the end? Read to find out!! |trigger warning| mentions of Self harm, Suicide, Self doubt, gore, and anxiety. STARTED: April 30, 2023 FINISHED: May 31, 2023 PUBLISHED: July 19, 2023 WRITER GOALS! 1k reads: 07/05/23 5k reads: 12/17/23 10k reads: 6/29/24 20k reads:1/1/25

When You Realize You've Become 'That Mom'...and What Comes Next by CatherineDeynes

Navigating parenthood doesn't come with an instructional manual. Now before you go saying 'Cathy, they have those you know' I will say "Sure, they have tons of books from tons of different people that think they know better than everyone else but no one really has all of the answers." Now be forwarned. I will take you on an emotional rollercoaster. When I am done with you, you won't know what you should be feeling but you will feel something. Is it anger, sadness, pity, or shame? I can't tell you how your story will end but I can tell you mine. So, if I haven't scared you off yet, buckle up, buckle in, and get ready for a bumpy ride. Warning, things aren't always as they seem and you may not be ready for it. Don't say I never did anything for you.

Ragged✔|18+ by _bella20

under editing | will be back soon C L Y D E For a long time, I thought the best thing that has ever happened to me was the first time I met my grandmother. She was all smiles and warm hugs the second I stepped out of the car, a clear contrast from the coldness I received from my dad's family when they learned of my existence. And then there's the day I met her, the person who'd change my life forever and make it seem like every event that led up to us running into each other was carefully crafted specifically for us and nobody else. Maybe I'm just in over my head with that theory. I'm only eighteen, for goodness sake. What the hell do I know about love? But I swear I see it every time I look into Reyna Morgan's dark brown eyes. I feel it every time her hands reach out to touch me. I taste it every time our mouths are locked in a passionate kiss and I hear it every time she reveals any tidbit about herself and trusts me with it. I just wonder if she'd take it all back once she really knew who I am and what I've done in the past.

His Mia by obsessive_writer0

Mia Rives 18 year old Mia lost her parents in a tragic accident when she was 15. She found herself in an abusive relationship, shes lost in her own head, she doesn't know her worth. That all changes when she meets him. She keeps him separated from her pain, but will it last? Can he prove to her she's worthy of love before it's to late? Aiden Becker He's 19 and feels as though he's nothing on this earth. Aiden has a heart condition, when he was 8 years old he had a heart transplant and suddenly his body is starting to reject it. His parents are drunks and they abuse him. When he meets her he wants to shield her from his condition and his parents. He wants to put her first. Will he be able to keep his secret from her or will things turn crazy? -------------- "Aiden we can't do this, Im with Elliot." I say breathlessly. It's not him I'm trying to convince. It's me. He grips my waist harder and gently pushes me against the sink "You mean that piece of shit who doesn't know how to show u real love, that piece of shit who I just beat into the concrete because he touched you without your permission?" His tone is deadly, he's angry and he's holding me like I'm the only thing that can calm him. He gently grabs my neck and brings our faces closer, I can feel his breath on my lips. He's trying to control himself, but I'm not sure if I want him too. "You drive me fucking crazy Mia, and the thought of his hands on you makes me want to do very bad things to him." He pants out, slowly gliding his fingers along my birthmark. His hands are everywhere on me and I can't take the burning sensation in my lower stomach as his eyes bore into mine. "Kiss me Aiden, touch me. Please just do something." I beg. Trigger warning and mature themes⚠️ (Physical, mental and emotional abuse (Drug abuse (Suicidal and homicidal tendencies (Sexual assault (Blood, aggression. Chapters that include these things will have a warning. Started: December 28th, 2022 Finished: March 18th, 2023

The child nobody wanted by CandusWhitaker

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In Love With Blindfolds On by cjacks1124

I gave the best of myself to someone who didn't have anything to lose. I didn't know how to avoid my lover's toxic and abusive flames. My lover's twisted words were like a maze inside of my head that I couldn't escape. Sadly, my lover's actions hypnotized my thoughts and paralyzed my thinking. I learned the hard way that love isn't leaning in for a kiss, and a fist meets you halfway. Love isn't being a punching bag because someone decided they wanted to beat on you today. Love isn't saying I love you just because someone wants to keep you to themselves. I tried to be there for my lover, but I learned it is impossible to fix the broken pieces when the glass has shattered. There will always be pieces that are not repairable. However, I kept going right back to the person who I needed to walk away from. I was afraid, and I wasn't brave enough to wake up from this nightmare! I made the choice to suffer when life is meant to be lived and enjoyed. Will I find the courage to know my worth and know that I deserve better than the distasteful lies that are whispered in my ears? Will I have the strength to fight my insecurities? Will, I set myself free, or will I let my love be the death of me?

Behind every mean girl...there's a tragedy by Winchesters_united

The average human being spends every second of his day fighting against the force of nature to see another day. But I'm different. I'm not afraid of outside forces to take my life away - only myself. Approximately 10 years ago, something happened to me. Something really bad. But I'm not allowed to talk about it. As a way to release my frustration, I give hell to my body and everyone I come in contact with - especially my parents. No one knows about what happened except the ones who did it...and Him. But he didn't stay. Now, he's back and he's not talking either. I want to stop hurting, I need to stop. Make me stop.

Burning Passion by LuxeInkedbyTee

"Kassauni, there is more to life than continuous pain and suffering. I am sure you know that, and no one is asking you to go through it alone," She told me. I took a long drag from the blunt and held it in my lungs before releasing it. "Whatever yah talk 'bout sound like a fairy tale and mi nuh want yuh feel like me is a problem fi yuh fix," I stated, staring into her eyes. She frowned, deeply. "You need to talk to someone, or me. I am here for you if you need anything." Her voice came out softer than usual. "Rosalia, left that. It nuh concern yuh," I told her. She hissed her teeth and slapped the blunt out of my hand. "Mi try talk to yuh, but if yuh nah go at least try to get help then mi nuh need fi deh here. Stay by yuhself since a that yuh fucking want." She turned and started walking away. // He was abandoned by his parents. Time and time again they let him down, not realizing that each time it was draining him. He isn't the most sentimental guy, probably one of the most nonchalant and controlling people you've ever met. She was sweet and came from what people would call the perfect family. In a short time, she made him indecisive and question himself. Peeled away every armor he had shielding his insecurities. She broke him but stood by him while he rebuilt himself into a better man. The man he always wanted to be. The man he knew she deserved. _______________________________ - Mature Content (18+) - Violence

Six Feet Under by SanjanaPandey14

"Always kiss your children goodnight, even if they're already asleep." - H. Jackson Brown, Jr. I have been wide awake for 17 years and yet my parents have never even held my hand and let me experience what it feels like to have a protective father or a nurturing mother. The walls of my house have grown thinner over the years. The windows make me want to know what it would feel like to jump outside. The kitchen makes me want to run and hide from my mother. The empty bottles of wine makes me want to fight my father. Should I fight a bit louder or laugh a bit quieter? Should I beg my parents to take my hand and let me go or should I sleep forever just to let it grow silent forever? My name is Paige and I wish to be happier.

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Human Status

I live in a world where I am nameless. I live in a world where I do not matter except or unless I am owned by someone. I do not have rights, freedoms, joys, wishes, or aspirations. I am property. I was born and raised to belong to someone that will one day take me away like the fairy tale stories that I listened to everyday in the house I live in. I prayed every night that a handsome prince would come and take me to live in his castle just like in the books. I prayed that I would be a princess and have a kingdom just like in the books. But I was never told that the books were all lies. I was never told the true reason why I was a well sought after commodity. I was never told that I am not the only one like me. When I found out it was too late to save myself. To think and in less than 4 days I will be taken away from my current home and be in a home of my own. I sat on the simple wooden bed hoping that my owner was nice and kind. I hated to think about some of the stories that I heard about the other girls like me. I hated thinking about being exterminated because I made my owner unhappy. I thought to myself that I would try real hard to keep him happy. I remember the covenant of rules that would keep me and my owner happy. I would need to follow five rules. 1. Always obey my owner. 2. Always be available to my owner. 3. Never talk back. 4. Always agree with my owner. 5. I am not human so I cannot do human things. I wondered how pretty human women were. I was so nervous about my departure I nearly refused to leave my room. I could leave if there wasn’t anything wrong with me physically. I remember the den mother telling me not to do anything that would cause a refund or else I would be exterminated upon refund. My new owner had thirty days to return me. If he returned me and no one else was interested I would be exterminated. I would be killed because it would be thought that I was defective and no one would want a defective product.