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my happy little pill | phan

thenightlockfox

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Reads 32,663
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Parts 25

thenightlockfox

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Dan Howell and Phil Lester have said over and over that "Phan" is not real, and they have never been in a relationship together. They swear it; not even once.

But behind the YouTube videos, BBC 1 radio shows and YouNows, what do Dan and Phil do in their private time? Are the fan-theories closer to the truth than Dan and Phil would like to even admit?

With so much information about their lives available on the Internet, can they be allowed to keep one little secret?

WARNING: CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, THEMES OF SUICIDE & SELF HARM. IT MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.

Note: Not all images used in this story are made by me, and credit goes to those who made them.All Rights Reserved

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Complicated ~ Phan by JinJim22

Phil always knew he loved Dan Howell... but he had no idea that Dan Howell had always loved him to. As soon as they kiss for the first time, their lives get more complicated then they could ever imagine... I didn't make the cover, credit to whoever did TRIGGER: (Almost) Self harming in one chapter

killer»phan by domesticdaniel

"i want you to kill me." -- the one where dan is suicidal and phil is homicidal.

Just Stay (Phan Fiction) by nopretendingnow

When Dan finally confesses his feelings for Phil, the older man reacts perfectly, however their jobs pull them apart and Dan struggles to cope without his best friend and lover. Includes Phan, Kickthestickz and Lemma as well as an array of OC's (one of which is based off of Luna Lovegood from Harry Potter) *trigger warnings* swearing, boyxboy, self-loathing, self-harm, depression, anxiety, suicide

The Hospital Meet (Phan) by panicbecausephan

After Dan landed in the hospital from a minor accident, he couldn't help but think about the attractive nurse that watched after him while he was hospital bound, Mr. Lester. Maybe the hospital wasn't so bad after all. ----- no trigger warnings or mentions of things that could trigger you (I really just want to make a happy phanfic instead of all angsty and depressing like most) but if I do decide to change it, I'll warn you.

Phan Oneshots {songfics & short stories} by Ninjakitty131

just a collection of oneshots that i think of throughout the day. literally. i'll be sitting in class or trying to sleep and i'll have an idea and i have to write it down. it's annoying. - long oneshots (3k+ bc i ramble on) - TW & info before each story - has gifs and stuff so be on the lookout requests? comment or message me with a prompt or just a small idea you had, etc. ---------- i'll write just about anything (no d/p x reader lmao) and i'll work with you on the plot/story as i write it! so it'll kind of be like exclusive access *wiggles eyebrows* you'd be able to know your story before anyone else. unless you don't wanna know because we can do that as well :D thank you guys so much for reading!! i hope you enjoy!! ^.^

Restarted by phanfict

"you learn to live with it, I guess." **could be triggering for some, please be careful

Admit It || Phan by abioli

Dan sees the way Phil reacts when he sees anything related to Phan. It makes all the more difficult to come to terms with how he really feels. The question is, will Phil feel the same way? (I wrote this a LONG time ago. 0/10 would NOT recommend plz don't read it's cringe)

The One - Phanfic AU by phan-collab

TRIGGER WARNING SMUT WARNING Dan goes on YouTube to help him get through his depression, when he stumbles across a lighthearted YouTube channel, "AmazingPhil", also known as Phil Lester. When fate brings them together, Dan, being the awkward person he is, doesn't say anything and regrets it for days after. Little do they know, fate has some very special plans for the pair...

The Wrong Way Around [Phan] by PurebloodDalek7

Everyone knows that Dan is the most likely one to have depression, and Dan is most likely to be gay, and Dan is just not as amazing as Phil. But what if everyone who thought all those things had it the wrong way around...? Yes, I know, I suck at descriptions Trigger warning: well, actually, I'm not totally sure exactly what's going to be in this, but there'll be suicide stuff and self harm and probably more. Just don't read it if you think you shouldn't. (PS The date at the bottom is lying, I finished this sometime around August of 2017 and started it near the end of 2015, which means it's kind of old and honestly I'm definitely not proud of it but people do seem to like it so I'm not taking it down)

Magnets by jayisnotdrowning

Dan. Kind of there, kind of not. Mostly just sad and lonely. Phil. New at school. They say opposites attract, like magnets. Don't they? (I'm in the process of re-writing this so if you see variations in quality please bear with me) *TRIGGER WARNING* Depression, self harm, mentions of suicide.

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Complicated ~ Phan cover

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Just Stay (Phan Fiction) cover

The Hospital Meet (Phan) cover

Phan Oneshots {songfics & short stories} cover

Restarted cover

Admit It || Phan cover

The One - Phanfic AU cover

The Wrong Way Around [Phan] cover

Complicated ~ Phan

Phil always knew he loved Dan Howell... but he had no idea that Dan Howell had always loved him to. As soon as they kiss for the first time, their lives get more complicated then they could ever imagine... I didn't make the cover, credit to whoever did TRIGGER: (Almost) Self harming in one chapter