The Mistake I Am

I don't really have a life.

Parents died at the age of four. It was actually their 20th anniversary. They were perfect. We were the perfect family. They use to spoil us well dad did. He'd get us chocolates we were his little princess's. Mum use to bring us to school while we sang to the radio. Those were beautiful days.

When they died it wasn't the same.
Our small town MaryLand never returned to the way it was.

Sure Ashley was alright she's now the Queen Bee.
She always was popular with the boys. Tan flawless skin, dark brown eyes, blonde hair, skinny yet curvy in all the right places. In summary she was sexy.

I well I never went back to being Ella.
Everything went dark.
I never thought about cutting or suicide until I was twelve.

The bullying became too much for me to handle.
The words FAT UGLY WORTHLESS.
The dark ugly bruises on my body.
I became a loner lost all my friends.

My so called 'friends' later turned on me and everyone bullys me.
My life is ok compared to some other people's though I guess.

I'm short tiny skinny but I have the curves.
Long dark hair, blue eyes with grey specs from my dad
Big pouty lips like Kylie Jenners.
Creamy pale skin.
I dress in dark all the time.
Dark sweatshirts with leggings and my beanies are my life.
I just couldn't do with the whole crop top makeup shit in the mornings.
Maybe mascara dunno.
I eat a lot I guess but I'm not fat though.

My second last year of high school.

Me and my sister get along fine.
We don't talk.
She likes it that way.
We live with our aunt who's always on business trips.
My sister is the most popular girl in school.
She knows about the bullying.
She doesn't care she just laughs and thinks it's a joke.

They pushed me in the school pool before.
But with Ashley it's a joke live a little.

See I study I want be a forensic scientist or a detective.
So I'm a perfect grade A student never below.
I don't waste valuable time partying.

But something bad is about to happen.
I feel it in my gut.