Ava Roberts is a broken girl. She's the girl that fakes a smile everyday, not that you'll ever notice. She's a little too closed-off, a little too hard on herself, and a little too terrified of letting people come into her life and actually meaning something. For years she's believed she could never be anything but a burden to anyone, because who would want a girl that's so broken? She comes from a family torn apart, a family that isn't really a family, and she doesn't know how to love and how to let others love her. Chris Warren is an expert. An expert at remembering things he wants to forget, at making people think he's fine, alright, okay, at having to be that older, protective brother that raises his siblings. He's a little too good at pretending, at telling himself that everything's fine, nothing's wrong. He's never been able to see the good in things unless he's pretending. He comes from a family full of lies, parents incapable of making time for their kids. When he stumbles across a bounded journal, he rushes to find the owner and give it back, hoping to forget he ever read such a thing, but he himself wants to be the one to stick around, despite everything in his mind telling him to run, and answer that very question: Who would want a girl so broken? A story about finding yourself, falling in love, and allowing yourself to open up and trust.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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