She cried her self to sleep
hoping
she
wouldnt
wake up.
She was an outcast
to life,
in a place
where
hating
was
casual.
She flinched at any
sudden movement.
She was the
girl
you avoided
in the halls,
the girl
no one
knew,
the
girl
no one
loved.
She was the the girl who was
never
wanted.
a break in her soul,
a sink in her heart,
a
loss
in
her
mind.
She was the girl
who had scars
not only for the worlds eyes,
but for her own
broken soul to see.
escape was her only
thought
fear was her only
ache.
She was mindless
she was
a
b
u
s
e
d
.
I guess you could say,
she didnt feel like doing life
today
or tomorrow
or
ever.
because
she was the girl
no one understood
no one listened to,
no one wondered about,
She was the girl
with an empty soul
a shattered heart
and a wreckless mind,
She never
wanted
to be like
them.
her creators,
neglective,
abusive,
never
was her wish.
She IS the girl, that sees
no meaning.
that feels nothing
and everything.
This girl is insanity,
a nightmare
a misfit.
she is,
me
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
*****
Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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