He's engaged and Im Jealous

Hi . I am Noah Line Roberts
Im 17 years old .
A completely ordinary but they said in a best way well.
i think so but ill tell you something . behind this smile
is a Fragile.
im to weak yet I acted im strong
I always say im ok but im not..
but hes always there for me .
not leaving my side
keep telling me that everything will be fine.
since we were kids .
but no . it will never be cause
im inlove with my bestfriend .
yes . and to tell you that i loving him so much giving me so much pain . because..
He's Engaged and Im jealous