Release
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Monday, June 4th, 2012
All i have to say is i plan on killing my self. On 7.4.12 @ 10pm. I'll be at my god mom's house. When we go motor cycling riding, i'll ask can I try and i'll crashing right into a moving vehicle. I already know i'm going to hell! It's okay because my family will be better off without me! Trust me! Without me that's just more money, more food, MORE EVERYTHING! The less ... the better ..
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Release is a diary about letting it all out. Us as humans hold in so much pain and hurt and it causes us to fall apart. But what we don't realize is sharing our stories actually helps others. It gives others faith and hope ... and sometimes thats all a person will need.
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