Fallen in Love, Again (ON-GOING)

I need to let someone know this. And it’s my notepad, nothing more. Okay. So, here goes nothing.

I'm almost to cry but I remebered that my eyes are always turns red whenever I cry too much that I always look like a vampire. I walked to my bedroom window passing a foot tall mirror and by a glimpse of my eye throught it I could see that I'm all worn-out. It's midnight and street are quiet except for those night insects- which I don't what they are called- that keeps on squeaking. Every night I’ve been constraining myself to not cry about what is my situation right now. Yet literally, that’s all I can ever feel, cry all the ache out. And I certainly don’t want to think about it. But I keep on doing it. And I hate it. Seriously. Uhm, I guess I’m not making any sense, am I? Well, let me make you understand.