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Was it lust or love?

On an early Monday morning my phone buzzed after a week or so.
I questioned myself why would she texted after the hurt she had caused in my life.
I contemplated on whether I should respond to her hello's and goodbye's, her good mornings and good nights and yet I did cause I longed for her greetings.
After a couple of weeks I started developing this hatred for her that I didn't understand myself.

I then realised she never loved me cause it was all lust.
I couldn't understand whether she new about my sexuality or thought it was just a confusion or I was going though a phase.

She questioned me about it and started judging me even before I was able to answer her, she called me all these kinds of things how much of a sin a am and that I would burn in hell and wouldn't care cause she felt as if I disrespect God and our friendship.
She was first friend I had ever lost because of my sexuality and I kept on questioning myself how many more am I going to lose.