Shattered

"I'm not the kind of beautiful
where you can just look at me and say
"Wow."
I'm the kind of beautiful where
I watch sweet movies and brush away tears
then attempt to write sappy poetry
I sing as loud as my lungs allow
when nobody is home
then quietly hum my favorite tune all day long
i get completely absorbed in books
then feel shattered when it all ends
I'll never abandon a friend,
but I'll understand if you abandon me,
I'm the kind of beautiful that stays up late
to watch my favorite show on the history channel
and eat a chocolate bunny
I'll get dressed and notice my jeans are getting tighter
then cry while singing my favorite song to cheer me up
I'm the kind of beautiful that
bites my nails to nubs because I get anxiety
and steps out of your way in the hallways
I'm the kind of beautiful
that's not exactly beautiful
but gorgeous"