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Dear Diary,

CalliesBrokenHeart

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CalliesBrokenHeart

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bipolar borderline bpd depression eatingdisorder emotional struggle

A journey through the mind of a woman with Bipolar, Borderline Personality Disorder and an Eating Disorder.


I have struggled with being overweight and according to doctors "morbid obese" since I could remember. I was diagnosed with Bipolar, PTSD at the age of 25. From a young age I developed a liking for food, and since it has always been my stablizer for emotions. My go to when I'm in need of love or when I'm bored.
Updated 8/11/19: At the age of 36, I was diagnosed with BPD (borderline personality disorder) It was noticeable, and a possible DX by the same doctors when I was 25, but they couldn't determine completely, as the DBT classes they wanted me to take then, I had no interest in whatsoever.
On a side note, I never did proceed with the Bariatric surgery. At this time, I have decided against it, and am currently trying still, on my own.All Rights Reserved

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