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Transgender teen Jacob McCormick changes the lives of his group of outcast friends in the summer of 1993. Still grief stricken by the death of his older brother, Jacob experiences a real sense of life while battling to escape the lack of respect his family shows towards his gender. As his relationships with his friends grow stronger throughout the summer, times take a turn for the worst and nothing will be the same again.
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-"The summer of my Junior year held a significant purpose to every single member in our gang of misfits, for everyone's life would be changed forever. A bond between us grew deeper than just a good time with friends, it grew skin deep, blood deep. And as subsequent years after went by, none could light a cigarette or look up at the stars without being poked in the side with the memory of those reckless teenage nights. We were defiant, we were broken, and we were untouchable."

**MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING : eating disorders as well as mental, suicide and self harm**

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ORIGINAL:The Boy With A Touch Of Cancer(BxB) by Jeanne_Wolf

"Leo pinned me against the wall with his hips; his hands gently gripping my wrists, keeping my arms above my head against the cool brick behind me. His beautiful, hazy blue eyes -that had turned straight quicksilver, again- were filled with such an intense, carnal desire I couldn't even look into them, so I looked over his shoulder. I saw a small group of kids from the group standing out by their cars who would easily be able to see what we were doing...or at least what Leo was doing to me. At that moment, my mind started wandering to all the things that I could be doing to him right now...but I stopped that train of thought, immediately, as it started heading to all the wrong places... All the dirty places... All of those places involving a very hard part of my body... I glanced back at Leo; his gaze was still as intense as it was before (unfortunately). He smirked at me and said confidently, "You can't ignore me forever, Ethan. You're eventually gonna fall for my charms..." Ethan Carter was focused on 2 things. 1. School (obviously) and 2. Getting over ex (it's proving to be, harder than he thought), but now he has to add dying to that list, and suddenly having feelings for a boy (which has happened once before, but Ethan tries to forget it). Leo Malone makes Ethan feel things he's never felt for another guy. Leo's sweet, patient, and understanding, the only problem is, he's a guy. Ethan tries to ignore the fact that his heart flutters every time he sees Leo, or that he can't ever stop thinking about him; but if having cancer has taught him one thing, it's that, "You have to live in the present, as you may not have a future."

Sanctuary by Imajidragon

Jake has nothing to live for. It really would be better to end it all now. On the run, scared shitless, and completely alone in the world, it's like he's running into a brick wall. Until, one night, sitting alone in a shitty bar, a group of strange men and a woman walk in. At first, Jake had the feeling that they were trouble. Which they were. But little did he know... That was the chance meeting that would change his life forever. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Just a warning, this book does contain subjects that may be triggering for some people, such as mentions of abuse, bullying, and depression. Do not read if these are topics you do not wish to hear about. (No rape or abusive/manipulative relationships, any abuse or bullying is mentioned in past tense)

Rock Bottom (BL) by ilovegaydinosaurs

ORION GRAVES has always been on top. A straight-A, high honors student. Top of his class on the path to valedictorian and an Ivy League school. Until suddenly, that all changes. Orion was outed as transgender at his old school, and became victim to relentless harassment. Not to mention that in June of his junior year, his mother lost her battle with cancer. Now, he must move in with his father-whom he hasn't seen since his parent's divorce when he was 8. Moving all the way from Red, California to Lakeview, Maine, he has to start from the very beginning. But, as he starts his senior year in a brand-new school he tries to keep his transgender identity under the radar, and he's quick to learn that it's not going to be easy to get back on top. Because there's Caleb. CALEB MITCHELL, the star child of Lakeview. Honored for being so well-rounded he probably shouldn't get too close to a hill. Not only that, but he's nice. And funny. And surprisingly good-looking. To Orion, he's impossible to dislike, despite him taking the place of valedictorian. Orion was only ever good for his brains. He's never had anything else. Yet now he's scared that he'll have to lose that too. ---------- Chapter 10 Release: Friday, December 13, 2024 Cover and story by me, @ilovegaydinosaurs / @coolsaige Official Playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2XONF7xeRhcFwDBWpbxmsB?si=7s4Whhq-RlewQIiya3UwQw

Life after Death: The Afterlife of Hezekiah Chamblee by JayDEvers

After being killed execution-style by his own family, a young man settles in an alternative afterlife and learns how to live. **************** On the day he graduated from high school, Hezekiah Chamblee was killed by his parents all because he wasn't meant to be a part of their American Dream and that he was a product of rape. Shortly after entering into the void between life and death, he is surprised to learn that he was not meant for heaven or hell and he wasn't meant to return to Earth. He is then sent to a simulated world known as "Nexus," where people like him were sent here and that they view an alternate timeline where they don't exist on Earth. It is there that Hezekiah not only views a timeline where he doesn't exist but also meets other teenagers and young adults like him, reunites with a crush from his old life (they being close friends back then), encounters with a sly femme fatale with wicked intentions, and learns about his true origin by both God and Lucifer (the deities being brothers themselves). Meanwhile in the land of the living, word of his death would trigger a butterfly effect that would unleash scandals, change lives, and have one of Hezekiah's younger twin brothers expose the family secrets before the family would completely come to ruin. Follow this story alongside Hezekiah Chamblee as he undergoes dynamic paradigm shifts about himself while learning to finally use his voice as his family's forbidden desires would bring them to their downfall. "What's done in the dark would soon be brought into the light. And what was said in whispers would be shouted loud from the rooftops."

My Life As a Teenage Zombie by SammaelAvery

Hello, dear reader. My name is Jonah, and I've never been someone who's lived an exciting life. The most out-there thing I've ever done? Trying a red devil burger. Hey, it really was as hot as it sounded. Well, my life sort of hit a snag one day. I got talked into going out, went to a park late at night, and BAM - somebody killed me. It didn't stick, though, or you wouldn't be reading this. Some weird homeless-looking guy woke me up from it, claiming to be a necromancer. In exchange for him doing that for me, he makes me give him a place to stay. Now that I've got a new lease on life, I'm not about to let it slip away again. My first death would've left me with so many regrets had it been permanent, and I don't plan on letting my permanent one do that to me. Of course, things are hard at home and school. Being gay in a conservative area will do that to a guy. Finding out all the quirks about my zombiism doesn't make it easier, and then there's all the other supernatural stuff going on. Oh, and I also have to avenge my murder, after all. The killer won't stop himself.

Let's Recelebrate (a Joshler story) (Celebrate ALTERNATE version) by InthenameofJoshDun

Joshua Dun struggled with mental health. When his new friend Jenna introduced him to a certain artist that wrote songs about depression and suicidal thoughts, Josh knew he'd found the most important music he'd ever find. Tyler Joseph was an up-and-coming artist that played medium sized hometown shows, but only small shows outside of his home state, 'cause he hadn't gotten signed yet. As Josh becomes a bigger and more devoted fan over the years, Tyler becomes a bigger, more popular, more successful artist. While Josh loved Tyler's success, he secretly wished Tyler didn't become more and more distant from fans, and much harder to reach. Josh thought it was impossible to meet Tyler again, until one day, he takes a wrong turn and finds Tyler crying outside his tour bus. ~~THIS book is COMPLETE. Book 2 (of the same title, Let's Recelebrate) is a DIRECT continuation. It is out now and actively being updated!! ~~ (re)Writing an alternate version of my (probably) most popular book Celebrate, because I always wished I had written the beginning differently. This is how I wished I had written this story in the first place. Some rankings: 1 #21p - 2023 1 #joshuadun - 2023 1 #21pilots - 2023 2 #tøp - 2023 3 #twentyonepilots 2023 2 #tysh - 2023 1 #twentyonepilots - 2022 2 #21pilots - 2022 2 #21p - 2022 5 #tøp - 2022 9 #tysh - 2022

Book I: to cross oceans for [BxB] (trans) - completed by transFigure_

"What if I'm not one?" I asked, my body wound tight with tension. "One what?" he asked, his voice soft and low. I hesitated. Was I ready? I wanted to tell him so badly. Wanted to scream it from the fucking rooftops. But there would be no going back if I allowed the words to spill out into the world. Telling myself I didn't need someone else's validation, that I knew myself well enough to know with absolute certainty that I was trans was all good and well in principle. But lying here underneath my bed, with my best friend's body pressed so close to mine I could feel his warm breath on my face, I felt those convictions slip through my fingers. Danny's rejection would break me. In a fundamental way. "One what?" he repeated the question, scooting so close to me the tip of his nose brushed mine. Dust motes danced around us, suspended in mid air, teetering on the brink of this momentous feeling wrapping itself around us. I squeezed my eyes shut, pushing down the rush of anxiety trying to drown me. His nose bumped mine again and his breath ghosted over my lips. I opened my eyes and stared unblinkingly into his. 'A girl', I wanted to say, even though I knew the words would taste sour in my mouth, 'what if I'm not a girl?' -------------------------------------- Sean and Danny have been next door neighbours and best friends since they were six years old. They've shared almost everything. From first kisses and crushes to heartbreak. But Sean has a secret. One he's never shared with his best friend - who's also the guy he's been in love with since he's known what love is. Sean is trans and struggling to come out. But it's Senior year and choices have to be made. Between college applications, uncovering a plan to hurt one of their classmates and his relationship with Danny, Sean is struggling with doing the right thing and graduating high school in one piece. ⭐to cross oceans for is PART I of Sean and Danny's story⭐ *TW: sexual assault and bullying *

Runaways- Runaways 1 by _silverlining_98

"Hey, who are you?" I could tell he wasn't trying to scare him off while still trying to establish the fact that we could hurt him if we wanted to. "I was gonna ask you the same question," he replied. "But since to beat me to it, I'm Eli. I'm just a seventeen-year-old kid out here alone. Y'all seem to be in the same situation." His southern accent was thick but definitely not South Carolinian. It sounded more like he was from Alabama or Mississippi. "True. For how long?" "Four weeks. I ran away because of...circumstances," he said, trailing off on the last word. "Prove to us you're not dangerous," Marcus threatened. "Prove to me you're not dangerous," Eli countered. "I don't even know your names." "Fine. I'm Marcus, that's Peyton, Luke, and Aaliyah," he answered, gesturing toward each of us as he spoke. I could tell he didn't trust the guy, but he seemed good enough. He hadn't said anything to make us distrust him, but he also hadn't said anything to make us trust him. "Look, dude, I'm not trying to hurt you. I'm looking for something a friend told me about a few weeks ago. She said there was a whole network of teens out here, but there's a camp somewhere in Florida that gives them a place to stay. Secret, of course, and run by teens, but anyway, it seems safer than being out here and living off the land." "Wait, you mean there are more of us?" I asked. ☁ Three teenagers find themselves rejected by their families after they're all unexpectedly outed on the same night. With the help of their friend, they head to the streets in search of freedom and acceptance. Along the way they meet another boy, and there's more to him then they could have ever guessed. Follow each of them as they discover who they are, who they love, and more of their country's secrets than they could ever dream of in a thrilling trilogy told from all five points of view.

My Wildest Dreams by fhsgctcusbf

Josh and Katie have been best friends since he first moved nextdoor midway through freshman year. They were attached to the hip and acted like they've known each other for years. Josh Parker was the all American boy who all the girls wanted, including Katie. As Katie and Josh's friendship blossomed she quickly formed a crush on Josh, but as the years progressed, her crush turned into love. Five years after leaving Miami brokenhearted after finding out about Josh's engagement to his childhood sweetheart. Katie unexpectedly reunites with her former best friend, and Josh quickly realizes that his feelings for her are not just platonic anymore. * As I'm walking out of work I get a call from my brother to pick my niece up from school. For the past 4 years that little girl has had me wrapped around her finger and I wouldn't have it any other way. Unfortunately I got stuck in traffic on the way over so I'm late for pick up. Once I get to Melanie's classroom I fill out the sign out sheet that's on the wall and make my way into the classroom. I faintly hear Melanie laughing so I know she's not upset from me being late. "Hey I'm so sorry. I got stuck in traff..." I said stopping mid sentence, stunned at the woman in front of me. Standing in front of me is someone I considered one of the most important people to me back in highschool. As soon as I looked into those Caribbean blue that I used to know so well, I knew it was her. It takes her a few seconds to realize who I am. She stands there stunned. We continue to stare at each other until she breaks the silence. "Josh?" She asks not believing it's actually me. "Hey Katie girl." Mature content Sexual scenes Inappropriate language (Book #1 of the Dreams series)

Escape || an LGBT+ story (DISCONTINUED) by XiaoNathan

!!!DISCONTINUED!!! Jay is a soon-to-be-18-year-old nontransitioned and closeted transgender boy, who can't wait until the day he can escape his strict christian environment to transition. But his life is thrown into an arcade when it gets intertwined with his long-time crush Joshua's friend group during the summer break. Joshua's friend Jake shows interest in him from the start, thinking Jay is a girl, and Jay is too scared to come out since that would mean Joshua would find out too. But life has a lot of twists for them all. Meanwhile, Jake, who has tried to escape his traumatic past in alcohol and one night stands, has decided that he wants to give Jay his all in and get rid of his bad habits for "her". But he soon realizes that he's not the only one after her and wants to make her his' once and for all - in a completely wrong way. ________________________________________ Triggering topics such as rape, sexism, dysphoria, homo- and transphobia, self-harm and suicide. I'm writing from my own experience from time to time, as a non-transitioned and closeted 16-year-old transgender boy from a strict church. It's kind of a rollercoaster. At least for me it is.

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ORIGINAL:The Boy With A Touch Of Cancer(BxB) cover

Sanctuary cover

Rock Bottom (BL) cover

Life after Death: The Afterlife of Hezekiah Chamblee cover

My Life As a Teenage Zombie cover

Let's Recelebrate (a Joshler story) (Celebrate ALTERNATE version) cover

Book I: to cross oceans for [BxB] (trans) - completed cover

Runaways- Runaways 1 cover

My Wildest Dreams cover

Escape || an LGBT+ story (DISCONTINUED) cover

ORIGINAL:The Boy With A Touch Of Cancer(BxB)

"Leo pinned me against the wall with his hips; his hands gently gripping my wrists, keeping my arms above my head against the cool brick behind me. His beautiful, hazy blue eyes -that had turned straight quicksilver, again- were filled with such an intense, carnal desire I couldn't even look into them, so I looked over his shoulder. I saw a small group of kids from the group standing out by their cars who would easily be able to see what we were doing...or at least what Leo was doing to me. At that moment, my mind started wandering to all the things that I could be doing to him right now...but I stopped that train of thought, immediately, as it started heading to all the wrong places... All the dirty places... All of those places involving a very hard part of my body... I glanced back at Leo; his gaze was still as intense as it was before (unfortunately). He smirked at me and said confidently, "You can't ignore me forever, Ethan. You're eventually gonna fall for my charms..." Ethan Carter was focused on 2 things. 1. School (obviously) and 2. Getting over ex (it's proving to be, harder than he thought), but now he has to add dying to that list, and suddenly having feelings for a boy (which has happened once before, but Ethan tries to forget it). Leo Malone makes Ethan feel things he's never felt for another guy. Leo's sweet, patient, and understanding, the only problem is, he's a guy. Ethan tries to ignore the fact that his heart flutters every time he sees Leo, or that he can't ever stop thinking about him; but if having cancer has taught him one thing, it's that, "You have to live in the present, as you may not have a future."