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Perfectly Imperfect

RussianAnorexic

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Reads 430
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Parts 7
Time 44m

RussianAnorexic

abuse anorexia bulimia homeless neglect orphan

Perfect. 

It is a word that haunts me. Memories of my past quickly flood my mind when it is spoken. My parents had drilled it into my head that I wasn't. Neglected and abused, I just wanted to be perfect. I did anything and everything to achieve that. I didn't care about the consequences, all that mattered was that I was perfect. 

So many people called me that. Now and then. On the outside, I might look that way but on the inside, I am the exact opposite. On the inside I am an emotional train wreck. Horrible mood swings, uncontrollable urges to drink, throwing up what I eat, are all part of my perfection. 

I am perfectly imperfect. 

*Names, places and certain scenes have been altered to protect the identities of those involved.

WARNING
Contains abuse and neglect of a child, underage drinking, and drug use.All Rights Reserved

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Aria's Story by daissydarling

Background: I have an older brother named Chris, and a younger sister named Reagan. My parents picked our names last minute because they didn't really care about what they were going to name us. My family lives in a huge house in Texas. My dad is a doctor and my mom is a lawyer so our family is pretty much rich. My parents rarely pay attention to any of us because they never wanted us. They give us money every month so that we won't have to bother them when we need money for something. I could probably be happy about that if my life was actually good and not a living hell. My brother is 23 years old so he doesn't live with us anymore. He's really smart and he's been at Yale since he was 19. He's majoring in music. My little sister is 15 years old and she's super friendly. She's also really smart, but she doesn't act like it because she doesn't want to be judged. She's one of the most popular girls at our school and she loves to be center of attention. That's how it all starts.

Everyones Obsessed* by Cie1_5

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𝓗𝓸𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 by beanzgetti4

Rita becomes strict with her eating, everyday the number of calories she eats gets lower and the amount of time she does cardio gets higher. She practices of managing her starvation by distracting it and never catches a break on the scale. Nobody is aware of it, it was something Rita doesn't want her friends or family to know, hiding her body from them didn't last long. Her mother noticed the dramatic weight change on her body. She tries to help her get back to her eating and tells her many times that she's "perfectly skinny" but nothing works. Her mother puts her foot down as Rita started to get ill, her mom takes her to a mental health hospital. She deals with consequences from her nurses and other patients.

The Twisted Mind by marvelousmayam

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healing is not linear - A Memoir by Frances Edelstein by FrancesShana

FINAL VERSION NOW AVAILABLE ON AMAZON: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0846QJQ86?ref=knfdg_R_twm_yes No one's life is perfect--and mine is no different. On the outside, you might see me as a young woman that was raised in the most perfect life; both parents, an upper-middle-class home, a safe neighborhood. This is all true, yes, but the worst of my struggles were things that many people didn't see: my mental health. In this book, I share all my struggles with my eating disorder, anxiety, depression, and the things that go along with it. My goal in writing this is letting you know that you, the reader, are never alone. There are people like me that care about you, that understand how hard it can be. Hopefully this book with give you clarity about some things you've been dealing with, and maybe give you some peace of mind and directions on how to navigate through these hard times. Please, keep fighting. We need you. Much love!

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Starving For Help by Lauryn_Love

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My Prison Called Life (Bio 1) by Dani_Wolf_WolfQueen

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