Narcotics: (noun)
Narcotic analgesics attach to receptors on nerves in the brain, reducing the perception of pain, causing numbness and possibly, a state of unconsciousness. Most people take narcotic analgesics for short-periods of time until pain lessens or goes away.
But some of them have chronic pain, other kind of pain that doesn't go away so easily, leading to crave narcotics, or feel as if they can't go through the day without the desired substance, causing at the end, extreme addiction.
However, this person quickly develops a tolerance, which means that they will need a higher dose in order to achieve the desired effect.
But higher doses and prolonged use come with a much greater and dangerous risk, leading you to feel what you craved for your whole life, see the things you though you wouldn't see before your death and a gain meaning for your poor and miserable life. But the thing here is, do you think it is really real?
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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