HOPEFULLY, DISAPPOINTED LOVE
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aishwarysharma
Ongoing, First published May 01, 2013
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I (26) fell in love, hard and true, wanting to marry her(17) . She seemed to reciprocate my desires, and i was the happiest guy on earth. Only, after one year together, she went away with another boy(18) , I am not affluent, but God Willing, I will be someday. I wanted her to wait so that I could place the world at her feet, but she had other plans. I was unaware of her new found love, and i waited for one full year, hoping that she would be willing to accept me back into her life. Well, I called her on her birthday (July 18), but received no response. the next day, her mother came and told me to stay away as her daughter had chosen her mate. I wished that i could die, the pain was so great. But i just felt numb. It has been two years since that day. 
Earlier i would just feel resentment and hatred for her and her mate, but now i have made my peace with God, and have forgiven them. They did what they had to do. I mean, come on, nobody wants to be with an impoverished guy. But my tomorrow could change. That notwithstanding, God gave me love and healed my heart. Now i have made God as my Beloved, as there are no betrayals from His side. 

THIS POEM CAME TO ME WHEN I WAS WAITING FOR HER, HOPEFUL AND THEN THAT FATEFUL DAY, WHEN I WAS DISAPPOINTED, CRUSHED.
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Life SUCKS.

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"Treasure what're you doing awake by this time". I heard my mum voice trailing behind. I shivered,I knew perfectly the rules of not being awake by this time. I would only get scolded at and maybe my phone seized. But it's not really my fault for wanting a distraction from my messy life. I just couldn't take it anymore,I was tired of thinking of my life I was tired of blaming God for the circumstances before me. Sometimes I feel like a burden and sometimes I wished I was never born. Life is cruel and learning from you mistakes doesn't count anymore. I have been told about how things would be fine by my mates. Encouraging words to keep me going, but it's simply not working. I would have committed suicide but I don't want to put my mum through that pain. She is my most favorite person in the universe. "Tress I'm talking to you. What are you doing awake?" I could feel my mum presence right behind me and dare not move. "Mum I just woke up and was just scrolling through Facebook sorry". I said after waking up from my trance. "You know the rules,no phones at night. Don't make me believe you have a boyfriend. Goodnight and put off that phone. Mum loves you. Goodnight Tress". "Goodnight Mum,sorry for breaking the rules. It won't happen again. I love you too". I smiled at her and watched her leave. I was actually texting my boyfriend.. Thank goodness he didn't call tho. That was really close, didn't want my mum to worry about me....

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