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I'm Drowning, But I Want To Swim.

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Hi, my name is Rachelle Marie. I'm 14 years old, I have red hair and blue eyes. I'm 5"0, I'm also single. I'm depressed, suicidal, and I self-harm.this story is basically just gonna be based off of my life. I'm gonna be telling you all the shit I've been going through. I'm also gonna try to give advice to other people that are depressed. I hope y'all enjoy.
also trigger warning, I will be talking about self-harm, suicidal thoughts, etc. I won't be like really graphic, but I just wanted to warn y'all.All Rights Reserved

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Perfect Imperfections

This is a story of a teenage girl named Lydia. She has had a pretty hard life with abusive parents, bullies at school and even having her own sisters turned against her but even after all that she didn't give up. Even when giving up completely seemed like the best possible option she kept fighting through it all. Now, you can read her story here and see how her she overcame all of these hardships and that even with all of her imperfections someone still thought she was perfect. *Trigger Warning- There will be some graphic scenes of self harm so if you are sensitive to the subject please just skip over those parts they will be marked and there will also be warnings at the top of each chapter if anything else comes up. Remember to stay safe and always ask for help. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline- 1-800-273-8255 There are also online chats you can go to if you don't like calling people. Also feel free to message me if you want to talk or rant or just get something off your mind.