Unavailing Life
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This tragic, heart filled story hurts to write. One paragraph of this takes more energy to write than a three paged essay on U.S. worst president (Franklin Pierce) For, this feels more real, but not in a sense of a biography. No one in this is real, all of the events are made up, but the inspiration, and the thoughts are all real. And all mine. Most of this is inspired by my life, and slightly altered events in my life. I'll have you know, it takes every ounce of me to write and upload this, for most of it, I haven't even admitted to myself. This, of course, has a trigger warning. Please read at your own risk.
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