How I Really Feel
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Complete Sun, Nov 29, 2015<5 mins
Everyone thinks I am fine but I am not
I feel broken and depressed inside cant you see
Wait you cant see because I always have a smile on my face.
If I tell people how I really feel they will laugh.
People wont take me seriously am scared onside I have pain
People think am happy all the time
I have been hurting for years
Everytime I tell someone about my feelings they just walk away
People think I am going crazy they just dont understand
Why does people think I am happy when I am not
I will go to the church and pray but I still have pain I will ask someone what life is like they say its great
Why isnt live great for me what did I do all I get is bullied
People think it doent bother me but it does I feel like I just got stabbed inside and they just let me lay there
I went to church I havent went in a while because I yhought people would judge me .
I went to church sunday morning my paster came up and said God is telling me to pray for you
I let him pray for me
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