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Roxalynn was a troubled girl in a toxic environment: Law school was too difficult, her sister was a bitch, not to mention her dad, and all her family seemed to care about was perfection. So in short, she felt incredibly trapped. The only moments when she could escape this suffocating life were at night, when she sneaked out to visit this abandoned park she had discovered. After a particularly hard day, she goes to her special place, only to find a stranger sat in her spot...

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Depression//Phan by bluetroyee

(tw: s*lf-h*rm, mentions of s*lf-h*rm, d*pr*ss*d scenes. May be triggering for some. Read at your own limit, please!) Phil Lester, a boy who's falling into depression slowly. And soon, his depression may end up falling to deep. He gets hateful and rude comments on his videos that he posts to YouTube. He even gets hate on Twitter, Facebook, and Tumblr. What did he ever do to them? What did he do to deserve any of this?? His flatmate Dan doesn't know about Phil's depression, however. All he knows (thinks, rather) is that his best friend is staying strong through all of the hateful things he gets from people. But in reality, that's not what Phil is doing at all. He's not staying strong through the hate. He's just faking the smile for Dan so he wouldn't get so worried about him. Sure, Dan might be able to crack some real smiles out of him once in a while, but not every time. He also wears long sleeves and thick bracelets to hide the scars of his pain. He acts like his normal quirky, adorable, funny, weird self when making YouTube videos, when around his friends and family, when having a meet-up with fans (or just being around them in general), when out in public, etc. Phil hadn't told anyone at all about his depression. And he probably wouldn't anytime soon, either. His fans didn't know, his friends didn't know, his family didn't know, Dan didn't know... nobody knew. But one day, would people push him over his limit? Would Dan be able to save him in time? © 2016 by bluetroyee. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

How Did We Get This Far? (Dan and Phil Fanfiction) by shuutupcharli

Phil and Clara are getting married, and when he tells his mother, she returns with some shocking news that has meant lies have been kept for years. There's a man and a girl he urgently needs to meet, while simultaneously checking on Dan. Dan has been living on his own. He has been doing fine. But, when he hears Phil is getting married he begins to struggle. Phil is the only one to fix these things, except the girl that is the closest to Phil that he can ever get: Doolittle. Elizabeth is an average teenage girl. But when her idol turns up on her doorstep her world is flipped as she sits on a rock and meets a man who is the only one who can convince her to do something she has dreaded for years.

Never forget me... by killingtimeanddreams

Dan has been missing for 2 years and Phil is slowly going crazy without him. When Dan finally returns home bruised, hurt, and broken they both realise they cant live without each other for long. Back from the kidnapping Dan suffers from depression and is struggling to live with the constant horrifying memories that haunt his life. Phil tries his hardest to help but will it be enough to save them both? trigger warning: contains self-harm and depressing thoughts. DO NOT READ if you are likely to get hurt by these things. I do not promote self harm or anything like this and I really hope that if you do these things talk to people about it. please. Anyways hope you enjoy my first phanfiction. I apologise if its bad but just a heads up if you hate it :) x

Life Is Precious, Just Like Him - Phil Lester X Depressed! Reader by noathenerd

You met Dan in College and became close friends, even dropped out at the same time as him because of overwhelming stress, and your Depression and Anxiety. Your parents won't take you back in because they're abusive and always have been, so you have no where to go. That is until Dan saves you and takes you in. At his place you met Phil and instantly there's something about him that makes you fall in love. Phil and you bond immediately and he promises to help you through your depression and other problems, no matter how hard it may be.

Happily Ever After~ Phan by amembroffandonms

Life's not a fairy tale. >·< There never truly is a 'happily ever after' >·< Dan. He suffers from depression. He often feels there is nothing for him in this world. It's not that his home life is terrible. It's not that the kids beat him up at school. Those factors don't really bother him. It's simply the fact that no one cares. >·< Phil. He's like an angel on earth. Bright blue eyes. Giggly. Happy. Yet that doesn't apply to Dan. >·< What applies to Dan is that Phil saved him. What more could he ask for? And what can Phil provide for Dan? What humans need. Food Water Shelter And you never know... Maybe humans need love? >·<

Annoying sunshine // Phan {COMPLETED} by derailedphantrash

CONTAINS SELF HARM AND DEPRESSION Dan: the anti social kid at the back of the class , dressed in black lost in his own world . He has no friends , no family and he liked it that way . He had secrets , ones that he could never share unless psychiatric hospital sound good to you . Phil : the over enthusiastic new kid that's smiling though his pain . The boy that lost everything yet still fakes his smile . He looks like the sun yet feels like the dark sky yet know one will ever know . Phil doesn't have secrets but he has another person within himself , the true Phil , the one that wants to put a bullet in his head and die like the rest of his family seems to do yet this Phil is hidden under a mask of bright clothes and smiles . When Dan and Phil meet at the back of a class right in the very corner dans appearance reminds him of his true self , Phil reminds Dan about the old him the one before he lost hope . Dan hates Phil he's to happy and it sickens Dan . Phil is intrigued by Dan he's to mysterious and Phil loves it . They both have secrets and they both have issues . Will they end up bonding or colliding ?

It's not just you - Phan (completed) by ChloeMitzu

Phil is in love with his best friend Dan, whom is dating a girl named Becca. After 6 months, Phil can't take it anymore, sending him over the edge. After Dan finds him on the roof, about to jump, how will Phil cope keeping his real reason away from Dan? This was originally just a one-shot from my book of them, however I liked it too much to just leave it at that! Rated PG-13 as there are mentions of suicide, sexual references and there will be swearing throughout this book. boyXboy as per usual. ©chloemitzu [PG-13] Parents Strongly Cautioned

Save Me From Myself » Daniel Howell AU by TheMeganHowell

[Trigger warning: Suicide, self-harm, eating disorders, and depression is mentioned many times in this story. Do not read if those things could trigger you.] Sadness and sorrow, you wouldn't expect those words to sum up the sister of Phil Lester, but they did.. She just feels like nothing. She needs someone to save her from herself. ©TheMeganHowell 2014 [Ahead of time, I would like to say that this was my first book after my long break from writing and me reading this is like Dan watching his first video. So much cringe. So it sucks. Stay away. Thanks.]

Wasted Space by sarcastictheatrekid

It's been nine years since Kendall's mother died. Kendall was extremely close to her mother and her death just tore her apart. Not to mention her father. He treated Kendall like dirt. Kendall is slowly slipping under the unavoidable blanket of depression. Inexplicably covering herself in sadness and doubt, her insecurities always by her side staring her straight in the face. But one person might be able to save her. But to be saved, she has to want to be saved.

psychedelia | phan by thenightlockfox

Dan has given up on ever being happy. Life has lost its meaning, and everything he seems to do causes some form of destruction, and Dan is so tired of destroying the things he used to love. He's lost so much, and he's scared of losing Phil, the only thing he can bring himself to care about. But Dan can't see past his own depression that Phil is struggling with bulimia, and that he's equally good at hiding his dark thoughts as Dan. And as Dan walks through the streets alone at night getting high to escape from the hell he's trapped himself in, will he be able to see that maybe the happiness he craves so desperately is not on the streets in the form of white pills, but inside his own apartment in the form of Phil Lester? Or will it be too late... WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, USE OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.

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Depression//Phan

(tw: slf-hrm, mentions of slf-hrm, dprss*d scenes. May be triggering for some. Read at your own limit, please!) Phil Lester, a boy who's falling into depression slowly. And soon, his depression may end up falling to deep. He gets hateful and rude comments on his videos that he posts to YouTube. He even gets hate on Twitter, Facebook, and Tumblr. What did he ever do to them? What did he do to deserve any of this?? His flatmate Dan doesn't know about Phil's depression, however. All he knows (thinks, rather) is that his best friend is staying strong through all of the hateful things he gets from people. But in reality, that's not what Phil is doing at all. He's not staying strong through the hate. He's just faking the smile for Dan so he wouldn't get so worried about him. Sure, Dan might be able to crack some real smiles out of him once in a while, but not every time. He also wears long sleeves and thick bracelets to hide the scars of his pain. He acts like his normal quirky, adorable, funny, weird self when making YouTube videos, when around his friends and family, when having a meet-up with fans (or just being around them in general), when out in public, etc. Phil hadn't told anyone at all about his depression. And he probably wouldn't anytime soon, either. His fans didn't know, his friends didn't know, his family didn't know, Dan didn't know... nobody knew. But one day, would people push him over his limit? Would Dan be able to save him in time? © 2016 by bluetroyee. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.