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Trembling Hands (BoyxBoy)

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Reads 1,952
Votes 101
Parts 16
Time 2h 16m

violentlybruised

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anxiety anxietydisorder boys boyxboy depression firstwork gay graphic love panicattack panicattacks teenfiction thriller tired

People always think it's fun to make fun of me. I really don't get it, yeah I'm a pretty big mess but I can't help it. I just have a hard time because people tried to kill me last year... I guess I was there wrong place, wrong time. But that doesn't mean you're not scarred for life. 

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Avian Stanley is 17 year old as his life shatters into pieces, while being at a concert with his 'true love' James Anderson, terrorists burst into the theater and start shooting around. 

James dies in the theater and Avian has to leave him behind and his former life.
 His new school and classmates don't get it, Avian doesn't talk and always shakes, he's just not normal. Avian is still blaming himself for the death of James, and does not allow himself fun without  James.

Until a new kid showes up named Daniel Flynn promises himself to help Avian through the hard times.

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Count The Stars by sunburststrat

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To All the Sins You Couldn't Commit

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