When I Was Her[On Hold]
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  • Parts 7
  • Time 1h 4m
Ongoing, First published May 06, 2013
Her name is Juniper Beaumont. Not only is she named after a spice (sort-of), like everyone in the family, but she has a secret that is devouring her insides. She wants to die. Juniper struggles with finding the will to live each day and this is a story of trust, love, mystery, and adventure. Finding out terrifying news puts a whole new spin on the situation. And that, is just the start. Add the family with mixed emotions, Cindy, the best friend, traders, counselors, and Paxton. Paxton, the extremely dangerous bad boy, who makes cops turn to jello, finds an interesting role in this twisted plot of a story. Will he be enough or will he just push Juniper over the edge? Each day, life is a whole new discovery. 

A/N Please read the very first posted message before continuing. I also want to state that this is not all about suicide, but you will hear more once you read the first, very important message. Thank you for reading.
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