My Book Of Honesty
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Well... I am depressed.
No friends at school,
My mom and dad think I need to change,
And at this moment,
I just stopped crying from my self hate.
But... you know... if you wanna hang out..
Nah... that's too risky... again...
So, do you wanna be my friend?
No... that's a little bit weird...
Nice to meet you.
NO!! You know nothing about me yet!!
My profile pic is me from 3 years ago!!!
Ugh.... I am socially awkward...
If you really still wanna read this,
Then you may go ahead.
But I am telling you this now.
I am really suicidal.
Like, I will talk about that.
And yeah, I am 13 but
That does not mean I am naive.
So don't you haters go over and say that.
Because trust me,
Ik what I am talking about.
4 whole years don't lie.
So this book, is all my secrets.
I don't really think I would actually have, purpose to keep them any way,
So why not write about it.
So, this will have sexual content.
So, this will talk about death,
And yes, this will contain cursing,
And a lot of it.
So enjoy.
All Rights Reserved
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